As 2009 comes to an end I am not going to write or reflect on how the year went because I can use one word. UGH. My list of life for 2010 is long and yet I seem more excited than I have been for some time. The rut I have been drowning in has somehow disappeared and I can finally see the top. I am going to view 2009 as a learning year of what I do not want any longer and the reason why I am at a place to make a difference.
For the past few years I have not made any resolutions because "who doesn't break them?", instead I am making life plans that have no end date. My resolution is not to make a resolution which I have been successful at doing. No more dieting, or putting self on other silly restrictions. I am going to do what I want to do and enjoy doing it.
I am looking forward to going on a cruise, first real vacation since I went to Europe in 93'. I am doing me this year and getting to a place to really live. Making the possibility of being a mother come true in the very distant future. Moving up and away.
Happy New Year friends enjoy your family for you are the lucky ones.
December 31, 2009
December 30, 2009
The beat goes on
As previously stated 2010 is a year of change for me. I am not going to waste time on reflection of the past year or give sob stories or regrets. I am going to look forward and be productive in 2010. Early in the year I made a list that I wanted to do or have completed. I got 2 out however many I did. Well no more. I am make a list and going to stick to it no matter how long it takes. I just hope number happens by February cause then ahhh smooth sailing.
So to all my friends in blog land here's to you and your family this Holiday Season. Have a great New Year and 2010.
So to all my friends in blog land here's to you and your family this Holiday Season. Have a great New Year and 2010.
Back to school
Starting in January I will be going back to school. My college career took me a long time and even when I graduated I had no idea what I wanted to do. I worked at a law firm, and currently at a non-profit. But it was working at the non-profit that I figured what my life was meant to be doing. That was helping children and their families deal with assault. I see everyday the impact that assault has on the victims. At the law firm I saw the other side. Although I morally had a problem with helping the perpetrator I didn't have a choice, everyone is entitled to counsel and therefore a fair chance to prove innocence. However, it was my job to do that I just couldn't. I didn't have the stomach so to speak. Honestly, I didn't have the heart to defend someone who hurt someone else. I wanted to help the person they wronged.
I am excited for the first time academically. I have a new passion and life back. I am starting up my hobby again and really take it to the next level. I don't mean to sell the pictures or anything but just for me.
Here's to school and furthering my career.
I am excited for the first time academically. I have a new passion and life back. I am starting up my hobby again and really take it to the next level. I don't mean to sell the pictures or anything but just for me.
Here's to school and furthering my career.
December 29, 2009
Diamonds are a girls best friend
I just love random titles....I have great friends in my life. They are forgiving, generous, humorous, loyal, and good people. Many I have known for many years and although I don't see them all the time, when we do get together it is like time has not passed between us. Over the last year I have not realized how lucky I am to have these women in my life. Things have changed in their lives, getting married, boyfriends, children, growing up (so to speak), moving, just them living their lives. However, it always comes back to us as friends. We share different stories and talk about different things but somehow those women remain in my life and take me for who I am as a person. Not requiring me to change or become something I am not. I can be me around them and they see exactly who I am. I believe that we are all still growing and becoming who were are supposed to be in this life and the fact that we can still come back to the same point together means a great deal.
Not everyone can say they have friends who I think would lay down in traffic for me. First many would beg the question why is she in traffic but they would be there for me in an instant no matter where they are they would be there.
When I was a kid growing up I thought friends were people you grew to be like that they always had something better or hiding something a secret to living. But that lasted about a minute till I figured that they were on a journey as I am to find who they were meant to become. Some of them became it right away (lucky) but others like me required more time on the journey to carve the path that they chose.
In a sense we are still carving our path out and trying to enjoy what comes our way. For the past week I have reflected on what has happened to my path. I was so passionate about my life and kind of gave up my life to help my family. I sort of gave up on my path. I promised myself last year that I wouldn't make a new years resolution, but this year I am making a few of them and starting with getting back to my OWN PATH.
So for 2010 I want to say to my Diamonds ladies this is our year to shine. So SHINE ON and enjoy your path for this is our time.
Not everyone can say they have friends who I think would lay down in traffic for me. First many would beg the question why is she in traffic but they would be there for me in an instant no matter where they are they would be there.
When I was a kid growing up I thought friends were people you grew to be like that they always had something better or hiding something a secret to living. But that lasted about a minute till I figured that they were on a journey as I am to find who they were meant to become. Some of them became it right away (lucky) but others like me required more time on the journey to carve the path that they chose.
In a sense we are still carving our path out and trying to enjoy what comes our way. For the past week I have reflected on what has happened to my path. I was so passionate about my life and kind of gave up my life to help my family. I sort of gave up on my path. I promised myself last year that I wouldn't make a new years resolution, but this year I am making a few of them and starting with getting back to my OWN PATH.
So for 2010 I want to say to my Diamonds ladies this is our year to shine. So SHINE ON and enjoy your path for this is our time.
December 23, 2009
Write the good ones already
I can't remember the last time that I bought a cd and was excited about it, besides Glee. Where is all the music written by talented people and sang that made the person purchasing smile. I haven't heard a cd where I was like WOW that was awesome I love every song on it.
I am putting a call to everyone who has ever felt they wrote the best song. Send it out and find someone to sing it already. I am tired of listening to the same of stuff on the radio. Play something great already.
I am putting a call to everyone who has ever felt they wrote the best song. Send it out and find someone to sing it already. I am tired of listening to the same of stuff on the radio. Play something great already.
December 18, 2009
Baa humbug
I am not a religious person. Meaning I don't go to church on holidays, Sundays or any day ending in a y. However, I believe there is something greater out there and I am not talking aliens. I pray to to a higher power and don't feel I must go to the place that was designated "worship" place to be heard. I just don't agree with the organized church situation. I believe that we were all put on this Earth for some purpose and it is our job to find out why.
The part that organized religion has that I don't like is the fact that it discriminates against others . Whether another religion, gender, sex, orientation, etc. Who are we to judge others!! I realize that others may disagree and may have words to say or what have you. I was raised learning right from wrong and to treat others how you would like to be treated. I speak my mind and am not afraid to express how I feel about something. I do not judge well I try not too. I don't care who you love or what you love. I would hope that the choice made would be of the appropriate age.
I am not saying that all religious places follow the creed of giving half your salary or more than what you can afford. I believe the higher power realizes you must eat. Giving to others is a great thing. But when the person who is leading the service drives up in a Mercedes or Corvette I start to question things.
I question the bible and the beliefs that I was taught because of how it was writen. Especially how women are viewed by some men to this day.
I would hope that when I become a mother that my child or children learn about different religions and choose which one fits them. However, a cult is not a religion period.
In the past month I have been given the job of Adopt-a-family and honestly at times I feel like the grinch. There are those that when you tell them that Santa is going to be here and you get a free picture with Santa they start to cry. That melts your heart of course. Then you get the so um yeah give me my presents and then they complain about what they get or ask for a receipt so they can exchange them to get money. I feel like telling them where to go and take the gifts back. Today's youth has lost sight of what Christmas is and what it stands for; not just a day to have off from school or I get lots of gifts. But the fact that your family is able to be together.
So this holiday season think of the people over fighting for us, those with homes, individuals who are without family and hold yours a little closer.
Happy Holidays to one and all.
The part that organized religion has that I don't like is the fact that it discriminates against others . Whether another religion, gender, sex, orientation, etc. Who are we to judge others!! I realize that others may disagree and may have words to say or what have you. I was raised learning right from wrong and to treat others how you would like to be treated. I speak my mind and am not afraid to express how I feel about something. I do not judge well I try not too. I don't care who you love or what you love. I would hope that the choice made would be of the appropriate age.
I am not saying that all religious places follow the creed of giving half your salary or more than what you can afford. I believe the higher power realizes you must eat. Giving to others is a great thing. But when the person who is leading the service drives up in a Mercedes or Corvette I start to question things.
I question the bible and the beliefs that I was taught because of how it was writen. Especially how women are viewed by some men to this day.
I would hope that when I become a mother that my child or children learn about different religions and choose which one fits them. However, a cult is not a religion period.
In the past month I have been given the job of Adopt-a-family and honestly at times I feel like the grinch. There are those that when you tell them that Santa is going to be here and you get a free picture with Santa they start to cry. That melts your heart of course. Then you get the so um yeah give me my presents and then they complain about what they get or ask for a receipt so they can exchange them to get money. I feel like telling them where to go and take the gifts back. Today's youth has lost sight of what Christmas is and what it stands for; not just a day to have off from school or I get lots of gifts. But the fact that your family is able to be together.
So this holiday season think of the people over fighting for us, those with homes, individuals who are without family and hold yours a little closer.
Happy Holidays to one and all.
December 11, 2009
All in your mind
Over the course of a year I have noticed that my fear of certain things has changed and grown in some instances. I have full control over my fears and yet they still keep me from doing things that I would normally due.
I have a fear of falling and but not from airplanes (although um not happening); but from standing on a chair. Yes, a chair. In the past I have fallen off of horses, bikes, beds, trees, etc. But I have the hardest time standing on a ladder or chair to get something high. Even stools freak me out. I know that its in my head but I realized that because I have such horrible balance in general; I feel uncomfortable being up there. Therefore, I keep my feet on the ground.
My goals or whatever for this coming year do not include working on this. I have tried and failed. However, when I have to get up on a chair or place that is clearly an obstacle due to my balance I grab on and go for it.
so until I get over it, I will just deal with the fact that I don't like heights.
I have a fear of falling and but not from airplanes (although um not happening); but from standing on a chair. Yes, a chair. In the past I have fallen off of horses, bikes, beds, trees, etc. But I have the hardest time standing on a ladder or chair to get something high. Even stools freak me out. I know that its in my head but I realized that because I have such horrible balance in general; I feel uncomfortable being up there. Therefore, I keep my feet on the ground.
My goals or whatever for this coming year do not include working on this. I have tried and failed. However, when I have to get up on a chair or place that is clearly an obstacle due to my balance I grab on and go for it.
so until I get over it, I will just deal with the fact that I don't like heights.
December 09, 2009
Christmas of plenty
My favorite memory of when my brothers were 3 and 6 respectfully was when they would wake up early (5 am) Christmas morning. They would first go to my parents room and bring their stockings, after they have already opened everything inside of them. They had to share with them how good they were because Santa came. Then my mom would make coffee and Christmas goodness cake (coffee cake, so good....mmmmm). My mom would make them wait until at least 6 am to wake me up, my dad set up the video camera to capture every hilarious moment.
At 6 am sharp they would be waiting outside my door that was closed giggling until my mom gave the OK boys to come bombard me with "look what Santa brought, look look....". They would both proceed to dump their stockings on my bed to show me everything. From the toys, chocolate, socks, etc....They the 6 year old would put all their stuff back into their stockings so the 4 year old could dump mine. Forgetting that they had already been through my stocking and took out, unwrapped, and bit what was in there. In fact the 6 year old was wearing my new watch and scarf, 3 year old had chocolate all over his face and was playing with my new unwrapped CD that I had already (good luck taking that one back). They would make me get up to see what else was left for them by Santa.
As a family we opened gifts and video taped the entire thing from the oohs and ahhhs to the oh great thanks for that's. I got a kick out of the faces both my brothers would make and the caios the would ensue. When one would open a gift that the other liked and they would want to open to play, and vice versa. It took a long time to open gifts and the laughter would last a lifetime.
The fact that I got more happiness having my family open what I had picked out specifically for them is better than any gift I could have gotten from them. Being together and playing games, opening the toys for them to enjoy and having them so excited to show me what they had makes me want that time back.
So this Christmas season give the gift of a smile or a laugh. Forge memories for that is the true gift.
What is your gift of plenty?
At 6 am sharp they would be waiting outside my door that was closed giggling until my mom gave the OK boys to come bombard me with "look what Santa brought, look look....". They would both proceed to dump their stockings on my bed to show me everything. From the toys, chocolate, socks, etc....They the 6 year old would put all their stuff back into their stockings so the 4 year old could dump mine. Forgetting that they had already been through my stocking and took out, unwrapped, and bit what was in there. In fact the 6 year old was wearing my new watch and scarf, 3 year old had chocolate all over his face and was playing with my new unwrapped CD that I had already (good luck taking that one back). They would make me get up to see what else was left for them by Santa.
As a family we opened gifts and video taped the entire thing from the oohs and ahhhs to the oh great thanks for that's. I got a kick out of the faces both my brothers would make and the caios the would ensue. When one would open a gift that the other liked and they would want to open to play, and vice versa. It took a long time to open gifts and the laughter would last a lifetime.
The fact that I got more happiness having my family open what I had picked out specifically for them is better than any gift I could have gotten from them. Being together and playing games, opening the toys for them to enjoy and having them so excited to show me what they had makes me want that time back.
So this Christmas season give the gift of a smile or a laugh. Forge memories for that is the true gift.
What is your gift of plenty?
December 08, 2009
A Christmas Story
My fondest memory of Christmas was when I was around 10-12 and it was at my Nana's house. All the family was present and I was lucky to be with my Nono in the kitchen cooking some type of fish. I got to clean the squid and play with the ink sacks. We had of course lots of fish but I remember this hug wooden bowl of salad that my Nono would make and put his special salad dressing on (oil, vinegar, season for taste) and ponea (bread on the side). All the grown ups of course would sit at the big table and the kids on the floor at the small table. During dinner all you would hear is the loud talking and Italian words being said throughout the amazing feast.
Its not that I miss the food or anything of that sort. I miss the family togetherness that today is not found like it was then. I understood the Italian that they spoke, loved playing games with familiy at the table, and spending time with everyone. That to me was the best time of the year. Christmas to me now is not exciting like it was when I was a kid. I dont' mean the presents and such. Just the family aspect of it. I miss the fun times with Cousins and Older generations, the talking about everything not everyone and just the sense of love in the room. Today its whose house am I going to be at and drama.
I know its reaching and am wishing on some pretty big stars when it comes to a possible reunion of everyone. There are cousins that I have never even met that have children. Uncles and Aunts I haven't seen in years and really want those in my family to bury what ever hatchet they have been hanging on too and move forward. There are not many people in the world that you can call family and I wish mine would start.
Here's to wishful thinking and a lot of dreaming.
Its not that I miss the food or anything of that sort. I miss the family togetherness that today is not found like it was then. I understood the Italian that they spoke, loved playing games with familiy at the table, and spending time with everyone. That to me was the best time of the year. Christmas to me now is not exciting like it was when I was a kid. I dont' mean the presents and such. Just the family aspect of it. I miss the fun times with Cousins and Older generations, the talking about everything not everyone and just the sense of love in the room. Today its whose house am I going to be at and drama.
I know its reaching and am wishing on some pretty big stars when it comes to a possible reunion of everyone. There are cousins that I have never even met that have children. Uncles and Aunts I haven't seen in years and really want those in my family to bury what ever hatchet they have been hanging on too and move forward. There are not many people in the world that you can call family and I wish mine would start.
Here's to wishful thinking and a lot of dreaming.
November 13, 2009
Reflections of a cynic
I decided to delete this post. I will continue writing about my life but just keep it about me.
November 06, 2009
Hawaiian punch ruins clothes
Ok peeps just a FYI I got my hair cut and colored last night and I am diggin it. I decided that I would treat myself and plus my hair was blah. It just hangs there like a lump and well I needed a revamp. I didn't go crazy cut 3 inches and gave myself faux bangs and the color is awesome. My hairstylist has been doing my hair since I was 18 yrs old, she is awesome.
So cheers to a change for the better or a difference to the future.
So cheers to a change for the better or a difference to the future.
November 03, 2009
Rough around the edges
Hello friends,
I have again been out of touch lately however I don' t have a good excuse or reason why. Just haven't had much to discuss or vent about. So I figured today I would give an update on the happenings of me. (please hold the applause until I'm done)...
for the last 2 weeks I have been battling a muscle problem. At one time the doctor thought it was serious but luckily it wasn't. I have a permanent charlie horse in the calf, the type that wake up in the middle of the night.. Yep that type. The upper part of my leg hurts standing, sitting, any activity at all. I am not exercising because the doc instructed me to give it time to heal before doing anything. I can't even pick up a piece of paper. My lower back hurts that are attached to my leg muscles. So I am a mess. I am tired of it hurting and have to much to do and get done. I am hoping for good news on certain aspects of my life and well this will hinder it slightly.
I have put my social life (dating, whatnot) on hold for a bit. I have been thinking and really just want to enjoy my life without worrying about getting older and the biological clock. I have great friends, my family is sort of drama filled but love them nonetheless and once the *&^( gets together things will be sailing along with a few light showers and some wavy days ahead. Which is normal. Not for me of course I will see more swells and possibly a squall but I can swim....
I am finally back to me. I figured out the things that needed work and will worked on it.
So until next time my 3 followers who I have no idea if you read this. Love always, laugh often, live free.
I have again been out of touch lately however I don' t have a good excuse or reason why. Just haven't had much to discuss or vent about. So I figured today I would give an update on the happenings of me. (please hold the applause until I'm done)...
for the last 2 weeks I have been battling a muscle problem. At one time the doctor thought it was serious but luckily it wasn't. I have a permanent charlie horse in the calf, the type that wake up in the middle of the night.. Yep that type. The upper part of my leg hurts standing, sitting, any activity at all. I am not exercising because the doc instructed me to give it time to heal before doing anything. I can't even pick up a piece of paper. My lower back hurts that are attached to my leg muscles. So I am a mess. I am tired of it hurting and have to much to do and get done. I am hoping for good news on certain aspects of my life and well this will hinder it slightly.
I have put my social life (dating, whatnot) on hold for a bit. I have been thinking and really just want to enjoy my life without worrying about getting older and the biological clock. I have great friends, my family is sort of drama filled but love them nonetheless and once the *&^( gets together things will be sailing along with a few light showers and some wavy days ahead. Which is normal. Not for me of course I will see more swells and possibly a squall but I can swim....
I am finally back to me. I figured out the things that needed work and will worked on it.
So until next time my 3 followers who I have no idea if you read this. Love always, laugh often, live free.
October 22, 2009
A song says so much
I was listening to Michael Buble's new CD and he has redone Daddy's Little Girl. When I was little I used to dream of my wedding and to this day I still know exactly what I want my dress to look like, where I want to get married and although the people may have changed that are going to be in my wedding; I still know what my first dance song is going to be, and the other jams that are going to play. The only thing missing was the father daughter dance song. If you know me at all you would know that I love music. I don't have a favorite type or song (there are so many) but I love music. So finding the perfect song for the father daughter dance was important. I thought it would be Butterfly Kisses (which may be apart of it) or This wish. Then I heard it. Daddy's little girl is amazing, it may not say exactly what Butterfly kisses says but I am a true Daddy's girl, always have been. Don't get me wrong I am close to my mother but there is just something about daughters and their fathers that is different. I try so hard to make my father proud, make sure he knows that I respect him and love him dearly.
So know all I need is to meet the man, marry him and I can have that dance. BTW the first dance with my who knows husband is Everything.
So know all I need is to meet the man, marry him and I can have that dance. BTW the first dance with my who knows husband is Everything.
October 15, 2009
Fallen and getting up
I need a hobby or something like a hobby. I have many things that I do and like to do in my spare time. However, I am getting bored of the books that are out, tired of doing the same ol thing and I don't have the space to do what I really want to do nor the equipment at the moment. The one thing I am very excited about is my xmas "craft" or what I like to call what everyone is getting this xmas. I do the xmas thing with friends and some famiy members. Others must understand that I am making my gifts and that means that I actually took the time to think what they like, enjoy and can have fun with. Therefore my "idea" is genius. I am actually doing it with my mom who came up with part of the idea and I added my little spin to it. I can't wait to get started, now that things are getting closer and time is closing in on me.
I will post pictures of the crafts as they get done.
I will post pictures of the crafts as they get done.
October 14, 2009
Its Raining In Cali
What's different today you ask well I have decided to start a new blog (still keeping this one) but it is going to be about struggles and triumphs that I have had and am still going through in life. It will not be linked to me at first I want to be able to use the 5th amendment freely. I do not want any association to myself these are personal experiences and things I have strong opinions about that I want to share in hopes that they might help someone out there. Don't miss understand all these things I would talk about freely with anyone who asked I am just tired of not getting my feelings out on certain things because others have opinions themselves and therefore discount others.
HEY ya'll I died my hair trying to get rid of the GREY let me tell you that is a fight in itself. I do it myself as I work for a non-profit and am trying to save to move out. I have finally paid off my credit card I used to pay for school.
I have evaluated my life the past month or so and this past week I saw what I do and do not want in my life.
~ I still want to be a mother. One who communicates with their child and they feel they can speak on any subject freely. No judgment. Which is going to be difficult being as I am a strong minded woman with a opinionated mind. (which I am working on_).
~ I commend and applaud my parents for raising my siblings and I. We become useful members of society with morals and values that are not frequently found in others.
~ Kudos to current mothers doing there thing and teaching your children. Molding them to be strong good people.
I believe I am here for a reason and am going to enjoy the journey in figuring out what that is. Am I in a healthier place emotionally sure physically NO. Again working on it.
HEY ya'll I died my hair trying to get rid of the GREY let me tell you that is a fight in itself. I do it myself as I work for a non-profit and am trying to save to move out. I have finally paid off my credit card I used to pay for school.
I have evaluated my life the past month or so and this past week I saw what I do and do not want in my life.
~ I still want to be a mother. One who communicates with their child and they feel they can speak on any subject freely. No judgment. Which is going to be difficult being as I am a strong minded woman with a opinionated mind. (which I am working on_).
~ I commend and applaud my parents for raising my siblings and I. We become useful members of society with morals and values that are not frequently found in others.
~ Kudos to current mothers doing there thing and teaching your children. Molding them to be strong good people.
I believe I am here for a reason and am going to enjoy the journey in figuring out what that is. Am I in a healthier place emotionally sure physically NO. Again working on it.
September 17, 2009
Where would I be without my childhood
I believe your childhood molds the very being your are. I remember most things about my childhood and feel for others that don't. One of my favorite memories is the first year we moved to the Hayter house and we joined the LGCA. I had just turned old enough to go by myself and even had my own card. I didn't know anyone but the boy 8 houses down whom I had known since his birth (I'm older). We would ride our bikes to the club house and swim all day. The lifeguard/instructor was awesome. His name was Dick and he was a firefighter that worked nights, so during the day he would be at the club house watching us kids swim and even join in on the fun. He would throw us in the pool, swing us like helicopters and teach us how to booty bump the dive board (a cool dive back in the day). We would play games and really no one would get out to "lay out" if you did the boys would get you wet some way.
That year I got my first boyfriend and had one of the best summers of my life. I was going into the 5th grade and starting a new school. I had just gotten a kitten from my Nonno and spent a lot of time with both my grand parents. I loved it.
I sometimes wonder what they would say about how there children turned out and their children's children. If they would be in aw on how diverse we all are. They were amazing people, with hearts of gold. I learned a lot from both and treasure the moments I had with them. I wish that my brothers had been able to know them like I had. I know that they would have been really fond of both my brothers.
In my child hood I had 2 amazing grandparents and I thank them for all that they did. Both my parents are great people and if not for their constant worry, nagging and laughter I would not have succeeded.
That year I got my first boyfriend and had one of the best summers of my life. I was going into the 5th grade and starting a new school. I had just gotten a kitten from my Nonno and spent a lot of time with both my grand parents. I loved it.
I sometimes wonder what they would say about how there children turned out and their children's children. If they would be in aw on how diverse we all are. They were amazing people, with hearts of gold. I learned a lot from both and treasure the moments I had with them. I wish that my brothers had been able to know them like I had. I know that they would have been really fond of both my brothers.
In my child hood I had 2 amazing grandparents and I thank them for all that they did. Both my parents are great people and if not for their constant worry, nagging and laughter I would not have succeeded.
September 16, 2009
Use your blinker MAN
I shouldn't really be anywhere near a car or freeway. I have the worst road rage. Yesterday, I was getting on the ramp to the 57 S and a jacka$$ decided to slam his horn and get all mad. Um, first of all smart guy its a 2 lane ramp, second there is not need for your hostel entrance onto the ramp. Then as I was waiting for the light he proceeded to slam his horn again. I gave him a polite wave of my favorite finger and went on my marry way.
This morning I had the craziest slowest most inconsiderate drivers around me. Not to be outdone by the accident on the OTHER side of the freeway. Why or Why do Californians play the part of lookey loo when it comes to accidents. You realize that by doing that you can get into another ACCIDENT. Real smart they are.
I understand that I must share the road but really, really do you know what that thing on the side of your steering wheel is; that is correct a signaler. It is to say I am going to change lanes please allow me. Not an option.
I just need to stay off the road.
This morning I had the craziest slowest most inconsiderate drivers around me. Not to be outdone by the accident on the OTHER side of the freeway. Why or Why do Californians play the part of lookey loo when it comes to accidents. You realize that by doing that you can get into another ACCIDENT. Real smart they are.
I understand that I must share the road but really, really do you know what that thing on the side of your steering wheel is; that is correct a signaler. It is to say I am going to change lanes please allow me. Not an option.
I just need to stay off the road.
September 15, 2009
Seasons of Memories
I thought I would take a moment out of my day and talk about the upcoming seasons. I love the changing of leaves, the colors of the sky and how the air temp changes to a cool and light breeze. Can you tell I hate the heat. I remember as a kid knowing exactly when Fall was by watching out tree just outside my window. First the leaves would change from a dark green to a light creme brown and the tips would still be a light green. Soon the leaves would fall and the weather was a calming cool and I would just be happy. It wasn't that winter was right around the corner but that rain would come and I love the smell of rain. It had to be the first rain. The distinct smell reminds me of my childhood to this day. I loved living in the house where I grew up. I would and could go through the house in the complete dark and know where everything was, the sounds it would make and the way it felt in the Fall. It is the place where I felt at home, the only place I felt at home. I was there for 14 years made friends, lost friends and had my first boyfriend there. To this day I drive by the house and although the current tenants have changed the outside it still looks like my home. When we first moved to Riverside I would go back there and think I am going to buy back that house one day. But as I think on it know what I wanted where my memories and I will always have those. Riding my bike with no hands until I slipped and fell in the gutter, having my first kiss, and my first cat who turned out to be a boy that I named Princess Sophia. Hey both my Nonno and Dad told me it was a girl, but surprise he wasn't. He would walk me to school everyday and then walk me back from school. He was awesome.
Fall reminds me of home, brings back memories and happy times. This fall I am going to make different ones and enjoy the happy times. Stop dwelling on the uncontrollable world.
Fall reminds me of home, brings back memories and happy times. This fall I am going to make different ones and enjoy the happy times. Stop dwelling on the uncontrollable world.
September 08, 2009
Weekend Round up
This labor day weekend was a bit off.
To start Saturday I worked, Sunday saw GAMER. I could have done without the nudity however, from start to finish it was really good. Not once did I feel I needed to reach out for the remote. Monday oh Monday well I got to hang with friends who one I haven't seen since her wedding and she is preggers. Yeah. Then went home around 7 the power went out. Well cooking is sort of difficult without power. Eventually we got dinner on the table and then around 830 the power came on briefly enough for a transformer to blow and start a fire. Our neighbor who is directly across (not far at all) tree was on fire. So, me in my clothes that are not outside wear and bare feet went across rocks to get their hose. My brother banged on their door and my father and I proceeded to put out the fire. It traveled to other trees and eventually we managed to get it out. The fire department came and oh the stories people where tellin. The funniest thing was that we were the first on the scene and we had people telling us what was happening. Like that guy over there put out the fire almost getting burnt, he saw it go up, blah blah blah.
Being who I am I walked over to the man with the person who just told me. And say "so you saw it go up, then why did it take you 20 minutes to come out of the house to put out the fire? Was it out already? Funny I didn't see you when I was on the other side of the bush with the house putting out the traveling ambers, nor did my father. " He stuttered trying to get the correct story out while I stood there and said "wow, its nice to know that if something happens to me I have you across the way who will wait 20 minutes till something is done and then stand around and watch. But at least you can report the story that you were the go to neighbor , thanks for that!"
He left and then the right telephone story about what happened which basically was transformer sparked made the trees catch on fire and was put out by neighbors while others called the fire department. Don't let me forget our security guys. OMG I feel so safe knowing that motorcycle guy is ready to save the day. You ask them a question and they say "UM I dunno". Heaven forbid there's a break in, there response is "um we have to wait for the police we can't help". Yep, glad I took those muay tai classes because well security is just useless. Its a shame that the park pays them. We have tried to get professionals but well the lady who is in charge she is such a peach, doesn't want to because of the liability. The liability they let a thief or worse into the place you are liable because they didn't check him in properly dumby. ugh.
To start Saturday I worked, Sunday saw GAMER. I could have done without the nudity however, from start to finish it was really good. Not once did I feel I needed to reach out for the remote. Monday oh Monday well I got to hang with friends who one I haven't seen since her wedding and she is preggers. Yeah. Then went home around 7 the power went out. Well cooking is sort of difficult without power. Eventually we got dinner on the table and then around 830 the power came on briefly enough for a transformer to blow and start a fire. Our neighbor who is directly across (not far at all) tree was on fire. So, me in my clothes that are not outside wear and bare feet went across rocks to get their hose. My brother banged on their door and my father and I proceeded to put out the fire. It traveled to other trees and eventually we managed to get it out. The fire department came and oh the stories people where tellin. The funniest thing was that we were the first on the scene and we had people telling us what was happening. Like that guy over there put out the fire almost getting burnt, he saw it go up, blah blah blah.
Being who I am I walked over to the man with the person who just told me. And say "so you saw it go up, then why did it take you 20 minutes to come out of the house to put out the fire? Was it out already? Funny I didn't see you when I was on the other side of the bush with the house putting out the traveling ambers, nor did my father. " He stuttered trying to get the correct story out while I stood there and said "wow, its nice to know that if something happens to me I have you across the way who will wait 20 minutes till something is done and then stand around and watch. But at least you can report the story that you were the go to neighbor , thanks for that!"
He left and then the right telephone story about what happened which basically was transformer sparked made the trees catch on fire and was put out by neighbors while others called the fire department. Don't let me forget our security guys. OMG I feel so safe knowing that motorcycle guy is ready to save the day. You ask them a question and they say "UM I dunno". Heaven forbid there's a break in, there response is "um we have to wait for the police we can't help". Yep, glad I took those muay tai classes because well security is just useless. Its a shame that the park pays them. We have tried to get professionals but well the lady who is in charge she is such a peach, doesn't want to because of the liability. The liability they let a thief or worse into the place you are liable because they didn't check him in properly dumby. ugh.
September 03, 2009
So true
Some of these are actually quite funny....
-I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.
-Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you
realize you're wrong.
-I don't understand the purpose of the line, "I don't need to drink to
have fun." Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and
sticks when they've invented the lighter?
-Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're
going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to
be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the
direction from which you came, you have to first do something like
check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to
yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're
crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.
-I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.
-Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the "people you may know"
feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose
not to be friends with?
-Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn't
work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically
fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all
know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards
or FAQ's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft.
-There is a great need for sarcasm font.
-Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and
suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first
saw it.
-How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
-I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than
take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
- I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear
your computer history if you die.
-The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to
finish a text.
- A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the
spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.
- LOL has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say".
- I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.
- Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron
test is absolutely petrifying.
- Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart",
all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".
- How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod
and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?
- MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I
know how to get out of my neighborhood.
- Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the
person died.
- I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the
shower first and THEN turn on the water.
-Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty,
and you can wear them forever.
- I would like to officially coin the phrase 'catching the swine flu'
to be used as a way to make fun of a friend for hooking up with an
overweight woman. Example: "Dave caught the swine flu last night."
-I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.
- Bad decisions make good stories
-Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their
profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got
the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if
I do!
-If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring
would probably just be completely invisible.
-Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go
around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly
nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't be
a problem....
-Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't
want to have to restart my collection.
-I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me
if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I
swear I did not make any changes to.
- "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.
-I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello?
Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and
goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone
and run away?
- I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not
seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
-When I meet a new girl, I'm terrified of mentioning something she
hasn't already told me but that I have learned from some light
internet stalking.
-I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle,
then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.
-Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still
not know what time it is.
-It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.
-I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to
answer when they call.
-It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and
the link takes me to a video instead of text.
-I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they
drive behind obeys the speed limit.
-I think the freezer deserves a light as well.
-I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or
Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.
September 02, 2009
Reform and reprise
I have been MIA for sometime and when I am not MIA I only write a bit about nothing. Well let me tell you why. I feel that everyone around me is moving forward and I am stuck. I am not unhappy just stuck. I have friends who have gotten married, are having children and amazing careers. As I well I'm stuck. I have put out r$#^*e and nothing. All I ask for is one chance to have anyone for a step in the door.
Don't get me wrong I am happy for my friends even my few family members who have gotten what they have in life. When is it my turn. I have been patient for some time now and I really don't want to wait till I'm 80 and then someone gives me a plate with everything I have always wanted. Um, really can't enjoy it.
Some may say make your own destiny. Here's the thing. Someone else has my destiny in their hands and can't do anything about it.
So I ask my fellow stuck peeps. What is a girl to do? Besides wallow and be stuck. Again it could be worse. But it has been this way for many (emphasis on the many) years.
Is it my turn yet?
Don't get me wrong I am happy for my friends even my few family members who have gotten what they have in life. When is it my turn. I have been patient for some time now and I really don't want to wait till I'm 80 and then someone gives me a plate with everything I have always wanted. Um, really can't enjoy it.
Some may say make your own destiny. Here's the thing. Someone else has my destiny in their hands and can't do anything about it.
So I ask my fellow stuck peeps. What is a girl to do? Besides wallow and be stuck. Again it could be worse. But it has been this way for many (emphasis on the many) years.
Is it my turn yet?
August 21, 2009
Love Hate relationshp with July and August
I realize that I have been lacking in the posting portion however nothing to report. Life is pretty much boring as of late. So, I decided to go back to stating the obvious.
JULY
I can't say that I hate July but I am not fond of some of it.
Again a 50/50 feeling on it
In general have you noticed that in Cali there is more traffic and people who are just rude in general. We all have to get to work and trying to speed when there is traffic causes not just you to be late because you caused an accident but also everyone else.
JULY
I can't say that I hate July but I am not fond of some of it.
- My friend Kari was born July 8th
- New summer shows premiere
- I hate that its so dang hot
- My feet swell to an enormous and painful porportion
- I was able to drive my new car
- Was in a fight with my brother until July 4th and seems we are back on track
- Did I mention its HOT!!
Again a 50/50 feeling on it
- My friend Carrie was born August 30th
- Its still hot
- I found out my friend is preggers
- I am getting my crafts done and enjoy them
- Getting the fever of wanting to be out on my own
- Fever about a new job
- Hate playing the waiting game
- Frustrated with me
- My laptop died, so long PC switching to MAC
- Getting good feedback from people I help
In general have you noticed that in Cali there is more traffic and people who are just rude in general. We all have to get to work and trying to speed when there is traffic causes not just you to be late because you caused an accident but also everyone else.
August 14, 2009
Have you missed me??
So I have been gone for almost a month, and yes I could tell you that I have been having an affair with someone off the grid (but oh what a lie), or say that I found this amazing job in Hawaii, heck Australia and moved there (that would be another lie). How about I just say that I felt like not saying or writing anything at all and leave it at that.
I realize that many of you crave my every word and wait for the moment when you update box says "It's Ginas life" has an update. I know, I know it truly is special. But I really had nothing I felt worth saying. I have been in a rut of sorts for about 2 years and finally got off my tookus to do something about it.
I spend more time with my mom. Well what I can she does live far away.
I have been sending more resumes out.
I love my car.
My brother and I are talking again. I hated not talking to him.
My other brother and I have gotten closer and enjoy hangin with each other.
My friends are solid. I realize that I can't choose my family but I can choose my friends and they have become family.
My passion for photography has come full circle I am going to get back to taking pics again with my slr.
I am getting a new laptop. My old one died. And the one my friend gave me likes to turn off in the middle of printing.
That's what I have to report today. More will come.
I realize that many of you crave my every word and wait for the moment when you update box says "It's Ginas life" has an update. I know, I know it truly is special. But I really had nothing I felt worth saying. I have been in a rut of sorts for about 2 years and finally got off my tookus to do something about it.
I spend more time with my mom. Well what I can she does live far away.
I have been sending more resumes out.
I love my car.
My brother and I are talking again. I hated not talking to him.
My other brother and I have gotten closer and enjoy hangin with each other.
My friends are solid. I realize that I can't choose my family but I can choose my friends and they have become family.
My passion for photography has come full circle I am going to get back to taking pics again with my slr.
I am getting a new laptop. My old one died. And the one my friend gave me likes to turn off in the middle of printing.
That's what I have to report today. More will come.
July 29, 2009
Letting Go
At times I sometimes write poetry. Yesterday, I wrote the following:
the fear of losing the one you love
the sadness of realizing you have to give up
let go and try to move on
seeing them happy with another
the knife sears your heart
as the pain builds
not seeing an end
Finally realizing that life is worth moving forward
by taking it one day at a time
reaching a point of forgiveness
and faith in yourself
and those who surround you
At the point to see the one you are meant to be with.
Time, forgiveness and hope can get anyone through the toughest of times.
the sadness of realizing you have to give up
let go and try to move on
seeing them happy with another
the knife sears your heart
as the pain builds
not seeing an end
Finally realizing that life is worth moving forward
by taking it one day at a time
reaching a point of forgiveness
and faith in yourself
and those who surround you
At the point to see the one you are meant to be with.
Time, forgiveness and hope can get anyone through the toughest of times.
July 22, 2009
Ties, Lies and Videotape
I am a dead end. Things have really started getting to me and some of it really is non-sense that I should just let it go. I know most do not do it on purpose but really it frustrates me because then I think what did I do to prompt that reaction or comment; that is lack there of in some cases. I am often over looked and those who know me are wondering how is that possible but really I am an after thought at most. Most of the time it doesn't bug me but for the last few months or so it has really gotten to me and I just choose to brush it off.
This is what happens when I am in a rut or fell that I have no way to reach the top of the mountain. I need one break and then I would be able to keep trekking but I am so tired of fighting for myself that I want to rest but if I do that than I would be stepped over instead of being picked up.
I guess what you might say is that my life is due for a change and I AM GOING TO CHANGE IT.
Isn't' it funny how I always talk about it but never make a plan or set goals for that well. that changes today after work I am going to start my list.
This is what happens when I am in a rut or fell that I have no way to reach the top of the mountain. I need one break and then I would be able to keep trekking but I am so tired of fighting for myself that I want to rest but if I do that than I would be stepped over instead of being picked up.
I guess what you might say is that my life is due for a change and I AM GOING TO CHANGE IT.
Isn't' it funny how I always talk about it but never make a plan or set goals for that well. that changes today after work I am going to start my list.
July 20, 2009
Need vs Wants
I know most of us and I say "US" meaning we all at one time or another thought we needed something so bad that we scrimped and saved until we had the exact amount including tax to get the most amazing whatever it was. There are needs such as clothes, shoes, food, gas if you own a car, bus money if you don't own a car. Then there are the pesky wants such as the ipods, computers (unless you have a small home business, homework); I am talking about the top of the line computer that you couldn't possibly use all the software type of machine, same goes for the digital camera, 40 pairs of shoes, 80 purses or wallets, DVD's that exceed 100, you get the idea.
To clarify there are two types of people the people who purchase items based on a need basis and minimize the wants. And those that are all about the wants and turn them all into needs.
For example I used to be the turn the wants into needs but have come to the conclusion that life is much more important that DVD's.
My Wants vs Needs
NEEDS and Wants
To clarify there are two types of people the people who purchase items based on a need basis and minimize the wants. And those that are all about the wants and turn them all into needs.
For example I used to be the turn the wants into needs but have come to the conclusion that life is much more important that DVD's.
My Wants vs Needs
NEEDS and Wants
- NEED-Some time ago I needed to get a new car and did.
- NEED-I replaced my digital camera with a newer version because my old one broke and was unfixable after going to the shop for a year. (PS I waited for the camera to go on super sale and saved each pay check)
- NEED-Old desktop was replaced after deleting not 1 but two of my 40 page papers for my school final.
- Wanted-Most women have an addition to shoes I have an addiction too: a) purses b) dvd's c) music d)flip flops (I curve these impulses by only purchasing purses at Ross or Marshal's. Dvd's are only purchased if they are on super sale meaning $10 or lower that I have seen in the movie theatre or NETFLIXED them first. Never by a DVD that you haven't seen based on the "actors" the movie could be horrible. Otherwise I wait. Music is purchased online for the 1 song or the album if I like more than 5 songs.
- NEED-to get a pedicure my feet are nasty and well haven't had one in years. Frankly, no time to sit there and wait. And the idea of someone rubbing my feet that I just met creeps me out a bit. However, my goal for this week is to get one. After all it is flip flop season and my feet well feet in general are nasty.
July 13, 2009
Weekend Recap
Let me breakdown the week first before I get to the weekend because it was nuts.
Monday-Hair appt.had to get rid of the grey that had decided to reappear.
Tuesday-Was supposed to go to the gym however to much to do
Wednesday-My friend Kari's birthday aka kidnapping
Thursday-Supposed to be my friends bacholorette party however family drama always likes to ruin my plans.
Ok so that was my week.
Friday went to the New Kids concert IT WAS AWESOME!! Will repost this with video and pics later
Saturday was the wedding day and it was beautiful. Jenny's dress was gorgeous and was perfect for her. Ryan her husband was so nervous he was shaking throughout the ceremony but his face when she came down was priceless. We were seated at table 8 and had so much fun, danced, laughed took crazy pictures and then it was over. It was really great to reconnect as a group though.
See pics below.
July 10, 2009
Things need to change
So for today's exciting post I have to put into words things around me that need to change.
- My feet are still extremely swollen to the point that I can't see my ankles unless I stay in bed all day. Even my water pill is no longer working
- My family still tries to control me when I haven't been controllable since birth
- I fell off the wagon (not drinking) and having a hard time getting back on
- I am dreading a certain conversation with my mother (no not pregnant)
- I hate that I let my family get to me still, I try to block it out but it really never sises to amaze me how they affect me
- I need a new job
- I have applied for my dream jobs and have heard nothing, I know the economy sucks but seriously cut me one break. All I ask is for one break in my entire life.
- When others say there were put here for a purpose I wonder how they figured out what their purpose was and when they found it?
- I hate being treated like I am 24 at work because all the others in higher management are over 50 and feel that because I look young I am a child to them.
- I am such a procrastinator
July 09, 2009
One Fine Day
My friend is getting married this Saturday to one of the good guys. There are not many out there anymore but he is one of them. There love story could be turned into a movie or a book written by Nicholas Sparks. They new each other in High School and dated briefly. They separated for a bit and then while he was on base (Army Soldier) they started talking and eventually he proposed. She said no at first she wanted to get reacquainted with him but somehow he new she was the one. After talking on the phone and seeing each other when possible he popped the question during Thanksgiving break and the rest is history. I am absolutely thrilled for her. She is an amazing person who deserves someone who will be not only her partner but understands what she wants out of life. He has never tried to defter her from her path but encourages and she is very understanding when it comes to the military lifestyle. I wish them nothing but joy and happiness with a very, very long life together.
I am happy to have him in our friend circle.
I am happy to have him in our friend circle.
July 08, 2009
Happy Birthday Kari
Today is my friend Kari's birthday. The celebration has started and because of the type of person she is many are waiting in line to have a day with her. Kari is the most selfless, caring, loyal, smart, sensitive person I have ever met. She gives even when people do not deserve it, she tries her best to help in any way possible and she thinks with her heart when it comes to her friends. She is very smart and has a lot to give. I have known her for 7 yrs and the first day I moved in and she handed me a stuffed penguin because my birthday was in 2 days. She had found out that I loved sea animals mainly penguins and wanted to do something for my birthday. From that day on we were instant friends and have been for years. We have had our differences and arguments but in the end we were better for it. Our friendship has grown into loyalty, understanding and forgiveness. She doesn't care that I am crazy (not in the Koo koo bin crazy) , eccentric and at times say things that only someone who has taken the time to get to know me would understand.
I want to thank you Kari for being a friend, a shoulder to cry on during those sucky times and a kind hearted soul.
Ps. I didn't have permission from her to post her picture. However, she is on my page.
I have amazing friends.
I want to thank you Kari for being a friend, a shoulder to cry on during those sucky times and a kind hearted soul.
Ps. I didn't have permission from her to post her picture. However, she is on my page.
I have amazing friends.
July 07, 2009
If today is it then what about tomorrow
I don't understand drivers these days. You think that the law for no texting is an option, talking on your phone without using hands free is optional and reading while driving is ok. BTW I don't mean a map or written directions, I am talking newspaper article, books. The laws in place are there for the saftey of ALL on the freeway.
Yesterday, I was driving to a friends house on the 91 Freeway when traffic came to an abrupt stop. I had plenty of time (tires didn't screech, no smelly rubber outside, at least a half of cars length room) however, the car behind me had to swerve, hit his breaks extremely hard and then get in the other lane just to miss me with the reading material still in his hands. He was going very fast and needless to say he was not paying attention. He proceeded to then to pull over to the side of the freeway and continue reading his paper. I could say this is a man thing but really women put on makeup, mix a baby bottle or read a book.
Pretty much when I saw him coming I speed up and moved to the other side outer portion of my lane. I had no idea whether he was going to hit my new car but all I know was that my body tensed and got a headache from the anticipation. Good news he didn't hit me, I got home safe and he learned a lesson for that day anyway.
Yesterday, I was driving to a friends house on the 91 Freeway when traffic came to an abrupt stop. I had plenty of time (tires didn't screech, no smelly rubber outside, at least a half of cars length room) however, the car behind me had to swerve, hit his breaks extremely hard and then get in the other lane just to miss me with the reading material still in his hands. He was going very fast and needless to say he was not paying attention. He proceeded to then to pull over to the side of the freeway and continue reading his paper. I could say this is a man thing but really women put on makeup, mix a baby bottle or read a book.
Pretty much when I saw him coming I speed up and moved to the other side outer portion of my lane. I had no idea whether he was going to hit my new car but all I know was that my body tensed and got a headache from the anticipation. Good news he didn't hit me, I got home safe and he learned a lesson for that day anyway.
July 02, 2009
The song that plays over and over in your head
Every had a song that just kept repeating itself in your head. Whether it was "its a small world", "this is the song that never ends" or the one on the radio that you hate but know all the words too. That has been my life thus far. It is the song that I can't get out of my head and then all the sudden my ipod changes it to Keith Urban's "Kiss a Girl" and you laugh to yourself and move on. I believe that my life is at that stage. I am taking more time for me, enjoying my life; well trying anyway.
Why am I telling you this? Well, I think everyone with kids or without should take a day or an hour of your day to be with yourself. I was given excellent advise sometime ago and I have been trying to concentrate more on me than anyone else. Some may say selfish but I have been all about my family for so long that I forgot who I was and am. I happen to like who I am and came to realize that who I am is who I want to be flaws and all. I always put my family first because that is what I was taught but what happens when the people in your family start putting others in front of you. When is it your turn? When is it your turn to put yourself before your family and think about you? Well my time is NOW!! I still care for my family and am always there for them but I have to let my brothers live their life as men and fall, and be there when they need me in whatever capacity. My parents are raised (LOL) and it is time I let them realize that I am an adult and in order for us to live I need to be let go as well. No more using me as a vessel for information or a venting punching bag. This is my time and I am taking it. I have given up to many years of my life for family and its time I started my own. I put off things I wanted to do because I was afraid that my brothers would resent me leaving or feel like I was abandoning them. But in truth I believe that if I don't do what I want that I will end up regretting it because I failed to live my life the way I wanted to show that it is possible. Lead by example. I take more on than I should and get involved when really I should let my brothers and parents have it out, make mistakes and then be there in a shoulder rather than a fixer. I have sheltered my brothers from hurt far to long its time I let them fly and be proud that I helped them get there.
So for those who understand a little of what I am going through or all. Take the time because yours it NOW!!!
Why am I telling you this? Well, I think everyone with kids or without should take a day or an hour of your day to be with yourself. I was given excellent advise sometime ago and I have been trying to concentrate more on me than anyone else. Some may say selfish but I have been all about my family for so long that I forgot who I was and am. I happen to like who I am and came to realize that who I am is who I want to be flaws and all. I always put my family first because that is what I was taught but what happens when the people in your family start putting others in front of you. When is it your turn? When is it your turn to put yourself before your family and think about you? Well my time is NOW!! I still care for my family and am always there for them but I have to let my brothers live their life as men and fall, and be there when they need me in whatever capacity. My parents are raised (LOL) and it is time I let them realize that I am an adult and in order for us to live I need to be let go as well. No more using me as a vessel for information or a venting punching bag. This is my time and I am taking it. I have given up to many years of my life for family and its time I started my own. I put off things I wanted to do because I was afraid that my brothers would resent me leaving or feel like I was abandoning them. But in truth I believe that if I don't do what I want that I will end up regretting it because I failed to live my life the way I wanted to show that it is possible. Lead by example. I take more on than I should and get involved when really I should let my brothers and parents have it out, make mistakes and then be there in a shoulder rather than a fixer. I have sheltered my brothers from hurt far to long its time I let them fly and be proud that I helped them get there.
So for those who understand a little of what I am going through or all. Take the time because yours it NOW!!!
Book Review-PREY
NO SPOILERS!!This is the fourth book of a series with Faythe Sanders and her werecat family. Faythe is put through hardship, anger, heartbreak and triumph. It is a very easy and fun read. I hated putting the book down and towards the end took my time because I was going to be sad it was ending. Rachel Vincent has an uncanny way of putting the reading right into the story and you can visualize exactly what she is writing right along with the story. It is supernatural with a lot of action and drama rolled into it. I recommend the entire series to everyone regardless of what you read; romance, thriller, mystery, chick lit. I guarantee you will enjoy it.
And don't use the excuse of no time, there is always time to read. It's the ultimate escape from the trials and tribulations of your life. Make the time to take time for yourself and read a good book.
To check out other books from Rachel Vincet www.rachelvincent.com.
July 01, 2009
Book Review Soon to come-PREY
Hey all, sorry for the lack of posts but life is happening. I will have a review of the new Rachel Vincent book "PREY" tomorrow. No spoilers will be given, promise.
June 29, 2009
Movie Review-Weekend Roundup
All last week I waited for Friday. Pleaded with people for a time machine to take me to Friday, it just wasn't getting here fast enough for me. Finally at 8:30pm I saw it, Transformers. I will be honest I read the reviews from others and I realize why I don't listen. Their reasons for not liking the movie is laughable. The reason it made so much money is that the special affects are phenomenal, it is more robot based with a back story and sets the tone for the next installment. I LOVED it. The fighting between the military and the robots was awesome and how they incorporated them into there new "secret oops missions" was very cool. I enjoyed it and although it is 2 in a half hours I didn't feel it. I would recommend to all with a word of caution it is rated PG-13 for a reason so parents be advised of some content that may not be suitable for all children.Well that was my Friday on Saturday I cleaned the house and my room, continued the purging of items, I am somewhat of a pack rat. I hadn't realized that before. Well no more and bye to all the stuff that hopefully someone else can use.
Sunday I was to see my friend Christina however it just didn't work out. I had a few things to do before and then time got away so I spent it with my mom. I enjoyed spending time with her we had a good time.
Next review will be Harry Potter hugely anticipated.
June 26, 2009
Saying goodbye to World Icons
Yesterday the World lost a icon. An amazing entertainer who brought millions joy and smiles over decades. However, I am irritated at the people who are know coming out and saying how sad they are about what happened to MJ. His supposed friends, family, colleagues; I think its all crap. MJ has been in hell for many years, criticized, put on trial, health failing, etc. And know you are coming out of your hole saying "he knew that he would die young". Why didn't you say something 14 yrs ago when he said it to ensure that it didn't happen. You want remore or symphay for being vacant or forgiven.
Today on the way to work I was listening to the callers who were saying that they would remember him for the crap he had done and went through. Instead of the songs and entertainment, generosity that he gave over decades of his life. That's completely crap!! MJ is an icon AROUND the world. The entire world is in mourning over this man. He was the first black man on MTV who had a video, paved the way for groups today, he is an entertainer of DECADES. I am not one of those fans who will visit his grave or cry in mourning but I do remember him as a man who loved being on stage and liked his privacy and gave generously. I remember the coverage of him with Ryan White, children who had cancer and he personally gave them a tour of his home, had parties for children who had never had a birthday party let alone gifts. He was a giving man who got caught up in legal matters that we false. I believe that the reasons he had children over his house for sleepovers and parties was that he never had that as a child himself and wanted to relive what he missed. MJ's childhood was taken away at the age of 5 by his father (don't' start getting all bent out of shape, its my OPINION) so I think his Neverland ranch was a way of him never growing up. The mere name Neverland means never grow up which is what he has tried to do for years. It is tragic that a man, a legend, a world icon was taken; regardless what the doctors find he was still taken before his time.
The media fails to realize that he has 3 young children who have just lost their father. Not an entertainer or singer but their FATHER. Someone who protected them the best he could from the outside world, to have them lead what one could only hope a normal life. Gave them the childhood he never had. He was a very soft spoken man who got a lot of crap for not being up front about things. ITS HIS LIFE LET HIM HAVE PRIVACY!!
I hope that he is able to look upon his children as they grow up and his children know that he is not suffering but looking over them.
R.I.P. Michael Jackson you will be missed, and thank you for what you have given and left for future generations.
Today on the way to work I was listening to the callers who were saying that they would remember him for the crap he had done and went through. Instead of the songs and entertainment, generosity that he gave over decades of his life. That's completely crap!! MJ is an icon AROUND the world. The entire world is in mourning over this man. He was the first black man on MTV who had a video, paved the way for groups today, he is an entertainer of DECADES. I am not one of those fans who will visit his grave or cry in mourning but I do remember him as a man who loved being on stage and liked his privacy and gave generously. I remember the coverage of him with Ryan White, children who had cancer and he personally gave them a tour of his home, had parties for children who had never had a birthday party let alone gifts. He was a giving man who got caught up in legal matters that we false. I believe that the reasons he had children over his house for sleepovers and parties was that he never had that as a child himself and wanted to relive what he missed. MJ's childhood was taken away at the age of 5 by his father (don't' start getting all bent out of shape, its my OPINION) so I think his Neverland ranch was a way of him never growing up. The mere name Neverland means never grow up which is what he has tried to do for years. It is tragic that a man, a legend, a world icon was taken; regardless what the doctors find he was still taken before his time.
The media fails to realize that he has 3 young children who have just lost their father. Not an entertainer or singer but their FATHER. Someone who protected them the best he could from the outside world, to have them lead what one could only hope a normal life. Gave them the childhood he never had. He was a very soft spoken man who got a lot of crap for not being up front about things. ITS HIS LIFE LET HIM HAVE PRIVACY!!
I hope that he is able to look upon his children as they grow up and his children know that he is not suffering but looking over them.
R.I.P. Michael Jackson you will be missed, and thank you for what you have given and left for future generations.
June 24, 2009
Top 10 Do not's while driving
The following are a list of things that I believe no one should do while driving or otherwise:
- Do not read a novel, work proposal, or any othe form of material while driving a vehicle in TRAFFIC.
- Do not put on your makeup, brush your teeth while driving in traffic
- Do not allow me to repeat this one DO NOT change your clothes while your vehicle is going 60 mph on the freeway with traffic ahead of you. Um Hello there's traffic and did I mention people are going to be around you.
- Do not think you have the right of way when you have a red light and think you can still turn left ON RED!
- Do not watch your dvd player while driving.
- Do not cross over from the carpool lane into the fast lane because its going slow; you cause not one but two accidents.
- Do not feed you newborn from the front seat. Pull your ass over.
- Do not have a picnic in your car with your family while driving.
- Do not blog on your computer while driving.
- Do not TALK ON YOUR CELL PHONE WHILE DRIVING.
- Bonus*-THERE IS NO ABSOLUTELY NO WAY YOU SHOULD DRINK THEN GET INTO A CAR AND DRIVE
June 19, 2009
Happy Father's Day-Daddy
This is my dad a warm, caring, set in his ways, very Italian, stubborn and always there each time I have needed him kind of guy. Although my father and I collide on a lot of issues whether they are political, social or everyday nonsense; he refuses to deviate. My dad was born in Sicily with nothing but a loving father and mother (greatest people you will ever meet). He is the youngest of 9 siblings technically; however he had an older brother who died at age 2 from pneumonia. He has survived hunger, disease and begging for food for his family, terrorizing his older sister, and moving from the only place he has ever known to another country. He has worked his tail off to provide for both his parents at age 15 and has not stopped. He gives his all and never asks for anything in return but honesty and love.
My father worked to give my brothers and I what he never had. He instilled in me the act of giving as well as hard work. I had a job when I was 12 yrs old babysitting kids in the neighborhood because I refused to ask my parents for money. I wasn't exactly allowed to have a job school was much more important to them, however I could have a vacation job while school was out. Even then I had to do something "school" related. My mother would get the reading list (extra) from my teacher (things she/he would recommend) and I would have to read that while on break to fulfill her criteria. I learned that although working was a part of growth but that you had to have the education to back it up. By the time I was allowed to have a job I was the captain of the swim team, president of the swim club, part of the water polo team (only girl), in the marine biology club and active in my community. I worked at a local movie theater and was a requested babysitter setting my own wages around my community. With my earnings I was going to help pay 1/2 of my ticket to Europe and for all my senior items. Not only did I learn the value of a dollar but it meant more because I had earned it.
Over the years that I have grown I don't think he has ever been able to understand me. I have always gone against the grain mainly because I was free too. His advice is always meant to be taken and to be considered as law. However, I always did my own thing and at times it may have seem to him the wrong path he never really let me fall to hard. He understood that my taking the more abstract path was a way to carve my world out instead of taking his pre-tested road.
My dad and I have a way about us when we talk. that is we don't we argue. To my dad I am still the little girl that never ages, he has a double standards for and it will forever be that way. I in a way get that however I fight against it. My dad is very lovable and can be tough at times but I know it comes from a loving heart.
Although he doesn't see things clearly at times, I know that he is always there for me. I'm not going to dwelll on the past but my parents and I have been through a lot and I am thankful for both of them; they made me the person I am today.
Love ya dad
June Gloom
I know you have all been waiting for it.....wait for it...wait for it.....And here it is the things that drive me nuts about June and the things I kinda like LOL...
They are mixed so hopefully you can tell whether I am happy or sad
They are mixed so hopefully you can tell whether I am happy or sad
- I have at least 3 friends with the same birth date..June 16
- My dear brother Michael was born June 14th
- the weather needs to decide hot or cold, I have a hard enough time as it is staying cool
- I started my weekly meetings, no I don't do drugs
- Surprise, Surprise I have a migraine again
- Drivers let me clarify male drivers are worse this time of year
- GAS PRICES!!
- The new season of So you think you can dance...oh how I love to hate this show. Nygel lythgow your an idiot
- My shows are on break and the new season is soon to start
- A very long summer is starting
- Not allowed to use the AC at work, wait to it gets hot. FYI heat rises so us on the 2nd floor will be hotter than those on the 1st.
- Soon my new books are to be released for my reading pleasure
- BBall is over and soon so will be baseball
- Can't wait till Football Season GO PATS
- I am going to start and finish my book this weekend
- I am very upset that my brother Nick and I are still not speaking. It hurts my heart everyday. And no my brother Michael is not a substitute they are separate people and I love them both separately.
- I am going to start taking pictures again and developing them. Strictly for myself.
- Jorge fixed my old laptop (i just need to upgrade).
- I have discovered a new band and love them. So not the normal music I would listen too.
- NEW KIDS CONCERT JULY
June 17, 2009
Security Blanket
I'm not talking about the item you sleep with, I am talking about the security you feel in your job, family, home, your life in general. I can't remember a time that I felt any type of security in any of those things. I always waited for the floor to drop from underneath and I fall flat.
I have been fired before from a job (I quit before he could). I was upset and angry however I understood why sort of. The manager well really the co-manager didn't really get along with me. He and the manager were friends and would take "smoking breaks" every 10 minutes and I always had to work the front. It sucked I had to commute from Riverside and work with him. He always said "cool beans" which was annoying. The only good part of the job was that I worked with one of the nicest guys named Keith. He was awesome so awesome that we were messing around and I accidentally put a staple in his leg and he was cool about it. I felt horrible and apolgogized to him every time I saw him. Needless to say I was fired from there and the other manager was happy (jerk) but I was sad for like a day and then moved on. Went out looking for another job and instead went to see Jay Leno (ok so it was really for NSYNC) but still and met some amazing people and got a job through them.
Still no job security. After that I went to a let's call it Info center that was like working at a cattle ranch only I was one of the cattle. I was bored all the time and read books to keep my mind going. Really I would answer the phone and be reading something, type into the computer and connect them. It was like I was waiting to be slaughtered. After a few years I joined a 'special section' that dealt with stars information. Pretty much I just read all day in that section. While I was working 5:30-1:30, I then drove from Riverside to Long Beach for school.
I found a job at the Aquarium and "moving place" when I moved to Long Beach. I was promoted rather quickly and was not liked in the new department. Didn't really care though. I did my own thing and graduated college and moved forward.
But each job I never had job security. I had more than what I listed of course but really I never felt that even if I messed up I wouldn't be fired. Still feel that way. My wish is that I find "my career" and am happy doing what I love. Isn't that everyone's wish, and make money of course.
I have been fired before from a job (I quit before he could). I was upset and angry however I understood why sort of. The manager well really the co-manager didn't really get along with me. He and the manager were friends and would take "smoking breaks" every 10 minutes and I always had to work the front. It sucked I had to commute from Riverside and work with him. He always said "cool beans" which was annoying. The only good part of the job was that I worked with one of the nicest guys named Keith. He was awesome so awesome that we were messing around and I accidentally put a staple in his leg and he was cool about it. I felt horrible and apolgogized to him every time I saw him. Needless to say I was fired from there and the other manager was happy (jerk) but I was sad for like a day and then moved on. Went out looking for another job and instead went to see Jay Leno (ok so it was really for NSYNC) but still and met some amazing people and got a job through them.
Still no job security. After that I went to a let's call it Info center that was like working at a cattle ranch only I was one of the cattle. I was bored all the time and read books to keep my mind going. Really I would answer the phone and be reading something, type into the computer and connect them. It was like I was waiting to be slaughtered. After a few years I joined a 'special section' that dealt with stars information. Pretty much I just read all day in that section. While I was working 5:30-1:30, I then drove from Riverside to Long Beach for school.
I found a job at the Aquarium and "moving place" when I moved to Long Beach. I was promoted rather quickly and was not liked in the new department. Didn't really care though. I did my own thing and graduated college and moved forward.
But each job I never had job security. I had more than what I listed of course but really I never felt that even if I messed up I wouldn't be fired. Still feel that way. My wish is that I find "my career" and am happy doing what I love. Isn't that everyone's wish, and make money of course.
June 16, 2009
Gadgets and Gizzmo's of plently
Welcome to those who have not entered the electronic world. I have noticed that many older or advanced individuals are refusing to enter the world of electronic. Many can remember having dictation as a part of their job, making copies meant a carbon copy, and music was done on 8 track tapes or cassettes. I for won remember the cassette tapes, VHS movies (beta), the first computer Commador 64 and first gaming system ATARI (mine still works), first cell phone (remember the one Zack Morris used while in school), and pagers. Today's youth are accustomed to ipods, DVD, cds and most recently blue ray, most teens have a cell phone. Our computers are obsolete after a few years and our cell phones have gone all advanced.
The most current is books on what appears to be a ipod for reading. I for one will not be getting those, I understand that it saves paper, and space but really opening a book to read and get invested in the words is the best part. Not reading as if it were on a computer but flipping through the pages and analyzing for years to come that is what I look forward too.
Today's society has become so technological that many get frustrated with the concepts and gadgets that the content or knowledge is lost in the struggle. I think in many ways I will remain apart of the technological world but have a toe in the simple relaxed portion when it comes to certain aspects of technology.
I love my digital camera and use it often. But I do have a 35 mm that I use with blaxk n white film. I enjoy changing the image during development and creating a different version of the picture. Brings me back to the roots of photography.
So remember to grasp technology, embrace your knowledge, advance or update frequently and open a real book.
The most current is books on what appears to be a ipod for reading. I for one will not be getting those, I understand that it saves paper, and space but really opening a book to read and get invested in the words is the best part. Not reading as if it were on a computer but flipping through the pages and analyzing for years to come that is what I look forward too.
Today's society has become so technological that many get frustrated with the concepts and gadgets that the content or knowledge is lost in the struggle. I think in many ways I will remain apart of the technological world but have a toe in the simple relaxed portion when it comes to certain aspects of technology.
I love my digital camera and use it often. But I do have a 35 mm that I use with blaxk n white film. I enjoy changing the image during development and creating a different version of the picture. Brings me back to the roots of photography.
So remember to grasp technology, embrace your knowledge, advance or update frequently and open a real book.
June 15, 2009
Weekend Round up-Happy Birthday Michael
I am going to start backwards with Sunday because that was my brother Michael's Birthday.
Michael is a great person and brother. He has an amazing heart and is a real charmer. Michael puts others before himself and has a great head on his shoulder's. I am extremely proud to call him MY BROTHER!! Happy Birthday lil bro you mean the world to me!!
For Mike's b-day my father took him to church and then they hung out for a while. I was supposed to do things around the house but wasn't feeling up to it. So, instead we hung out together and then I went to Chili's and got dinner and dessert (Mike's only). We are going to go to a movie after Tuesday June 23rd; to watch Transformer's. He also moved in this weekend, YEAH!!!
Saturday was spent moving Mike from my mother's to my father's house at 6 am and then went to a surprise party for my uncle. I saw and re-met a cousin who used to babysit me till I was 2. We then went home because we were all exhausted.
Friday was a day full of work and printing up pictures for my mother.
Plan for this coming week; more job searches and getting my room in order. I say that I am going to do it every week but really it helps when your kidneys don't hate you.
Michael is a great person and brother. He has an amazing heart and is a real charmer. Michael puts others before himself and has a great head on his shoulder's. I am extremely proud to call him MY BROTHER!! Happy Birthday lil bro you mean the world to me!!
For Mike's b-day my father took him to church and then they hung out for a while. I was supposed to do things around the house but wasn't feeling up to it. So, instead we hung out together and then I went to Chili's and got dinner and dessert (Mike's only). We are going to go to a movie after Tuesday June 23rd; to watch Transformer's. He also moved in this weekend, YEAH!!!
Saturday was spent moving Mike from my mother's to my father's house at 6 am and then went to a surprise party for my uncle. I saw and re-met a cousin who used to babysit me till I was 2. We then went home because we were all exhausted.
Friday was a day full of work and printing up pictures for my mother.
Plan for this coming week; more job searches and getting my room in order. I say that I am going to do it every week but really it helps when your kidneys don't hate you.
Lucky 7
Over at April Showers she did Lucky 8, well 8 has never been my lucky number so I am doing Lucky 7 is my fave number in the world!
7 things I am looking forward to:
1. Losing more weight
2. Finishing my book
3. Finding my career
4. Hanging out with my brother MIKE
5. Seeing my dad happy again
6. Drama being over
7. Getting back to swimming
7 things I did yesterday:
1. Watched HOUSE-finished season 3 and started season 4
2. Did one load of laundry
3. Watched a surprisingly cute movie New in Town
4. Bought dinner for my brother and father from Chili's
5. Slept in till 8 Wahooo
6. Thought about going to the gym, decided not too. No motivation plus they do not have a punching bag.
7. Craved choc malt all day.
7 things I wish I could do:
1. Have my dream job in San Diego
2. My family drama would go away
3. Was able to adopt the little one that is coming in Dec.
4. Able to eat food and not gain any weight
5. Go on vacation
6. Live in San Diego
7. Be able to adopt next year.
shows I watch: (this is sad.)
1. Grey's Anatomy
2. One Tree Hill
3. Raising the Bar
4. In plain Sight
5. Army Wives
6. Castle
7. Dollhouse
8. Harper's Island
7 things I am looking forward to:
1. Losing more weight
2. Finishing my book
3. Finding my career
4. Hanging out with my brother MIKE
5. Seeing my dad happy again
6. Drama being over
7. Getting back to swimming
7 things I did yesterday:
1. Watched HOUSE-finished season 3 and started season 4
2. Did one load of laundry
3. Watched a surprisingly cute movie New in Town
4. Bought dinner for my brother and father from Chili's
5. Slept in till 8 Wahooo
6. Thought about going to the gym, decided not too. No motivation plus they do not have a punching bag.
7. Craved choc malt all day.
7 things I wish I could do:
1. Have my dream job in San Diego
2. My family drama would go away
3. Was able to adopt the little one that is coming in Dec.
4. Able to eat food and not gain any weight
5. Go on vacation
6. Live in San Diego
7. Be able to adopt next year.
shows I watch: (this is sad.)
1. Grey's Anatomy
2. One Tree Hill
3. Raising the Bar
4. In plain Sight
5. Army Wives
6. Castle
7. Dollhouse
8. Harper's Island
June 12, 2009
Meeting 1
So how is everyone doing with their diet wars? I was weighed yesterday for the first time since getting the horrible news that I gained all the weight I had lost on Weight Watchers and going to the doctors of course. Well the good news is that my appetite has changed along with my weight. YAH!!!!
However, my mother who is an amazing cook made this yummy birthday cake for my brotherMichael who's birthday is actually June 14th. But Happy Early Birthday MIKE, MUAH.
It is frozen yogurt (choc and vanilla) surrounded by choc/strawberry/vanilla ice cream sandwiches.
Choc covered strawberries homemade. My favorite.
Before the birthday wishes!!
It was so good. Definitely going in the cookbook.
However, my mother who is an amazing cook made this yummy birthday cake for my brotherMichael who's birthday is actually June 14th. But Happy Early Birthday MIKE, MUAH.
It is frozen yogurt (choc and vanilla) surrounded by choc/strawberry/vanilla ice cream sandwiches.
Choc covered strawberries homemade. My favorite.
Before the birthday wishes!!
It was so good. Definitely going in the cookbook.
So you see why I say that I am happy that I was able to have the delicious cake and loose lbs. My mom sure can make a cake. WOW
June 11, 2009
Mike Graduates!!!
Ahh my youngest brother has ended his HIGH SCHOOL CAREER and is ready to enter the real world. No more FREEDOM its time to embark on your journey.
Enjoying the fruits of his labor
A mother's joy
A father's pride
A ladies man
Congratulations MICHAEL I am very proud of you
June 10, 2009
Liers and Being lied to the AFFECTS
For the past 3 or so months possibly more than that I have been on a roller coaster that never seemed to end.
100 truths
April tagged everyone - so I too tag everyone! Mwah ha ha! This was fun! Repost and come back and tell me where to find it so I can read up on all your juicy secret
1. Last beverage → Sprite no caffiene
2. Last phone call → A$$ whole
3. Last text message → Today it was Ejiro trying to make me feel better.
4. Last song you listened to → boys of summer
5. Last time you cried → Last night…
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice? → No
2. Been cheated on? → No.
3. Kissed someone? → Yes.
4. Lost someone special? → Yes, last night
5. Been depressed? → Yes still am
6. Been drunk and threw up? → of course and those who say they haven't well they may not remember
LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Baby Blue
2. Brown
3. Creme
4. Blue
HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → somewhat
2. Fallen out of love → Sort of
3. Laughed until you cried → Yes!
4. Met someone who changed you → yes
5. Found out who your true friends were → Yes.
6. Found out someone was talking about you → Yep
7. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list → Yes!
8. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life → Most of them either now or at some point in my life.
9. How many kids do you want to have → 2
10. Do you have any pets → Yep 2 cats
11. Do you want to change your name → I did a long time ago but it kind of fits
13. What time did you wake up today → Better question when did I go to bed. Fully wake up 6am
14. What were you doing at midnight last night → Crying
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → to have all the drama stop and finally get the baby. SHE or HE is due in December!!
16. Last time you saw your father → this morning
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → my brother and his choices
18. What are you listening to right now → Beastie Boys
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → like forever ago
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → my brother
24. Most visited webpage → hotmail and blogger
1. What's your name? → Gina
3. Relationship Status → single
4. Zodiac sign → Bull or Taurus
5. Male or female or transgendered → female
6. Primary School → Mark Twain
7. Middle School → Bancroft
8. High school → Lakewood
10. Hair color → dyed
11. Long or short → long going to get cut soon
16. Height → 5'5 1/2
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → no, well maybe Nathan Fillion
18: What do you like about yourself? → personality
19. Piercings → My ears
20. Tattoos → not yet
21. Righty or lefty → Righty.
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → hip surgery when I was a kid
23. First piercing → Ears, age 7.
24. First best friends → Jamie
26. First sport you joined → Swimming and Soccer
27. First pet → Snow
28. First vacation → Lake Hemet with family
29. First concert → NKOTB when I was 12
30. First crush → Adam
RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → Nothing, so not hungry
50. Drinking → sprite
52. I'm about to → cry
53. Listening to → Bianca Ryan, she can sing!!!
55. Waiting for → Baby
YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? BADLY.
59. Want to get married? sure
60. Careers in mind? Victim Advocate for Homicide
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes → eyes
69. Hugs or kisses → Hugs that turn into kisses
70. Shorter or taller → Taller
71. Older or Younger → Older
72. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantically spontaneous.
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms
74. Sensitive or loud → how about just fun.
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → make it interesting
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → NO
79. Drank hard liquor → Yep shhhh!!!
80. Lost glasses/contacts → no
81. Sex on first date → ….NO!
82. Broken someone's heart → NO
83. Had your own heart broken → Yes, recently
85. Been arrested → No
86. Turned someone down → Yes
87. Cried when someone died → Yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → no
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → sometimes
90. Miracles → for others
91. Love at first sight → no
92. Heaven → Hell yes
93. Santa Clause → when the kid arrives then yes
95. Kiss on the first date? → depends
96. Angels → something
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → no
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → Yes in like 5th grade
99. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Sure.
100. There wasn't one - oh well! That’s lame.
1. Last beverage → Sprite no caffiene
2. Last phone call → A$$ whole
3. Last text message → Today it was Ejiro trying to make me feel better.
4. Last song you listened to → boys of summer
5. Last time you cried → Last night…
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice? → No
2. Been cheated on? → No.
3. Kissed someone? → Yes.
4. Lost someone special? → Yes, last night
5. Been depressed? → Yes still am
6. Been drunk and threw up? → of course and those who say they haven't well they may not remember
LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Baby Blue
2. Brown
3. Creme
4. Blue
HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → somewhat
2. Fallen out of love → Sort of
3. Laughed until you cried → Yes!
4. Met someone who changed you → yes
5. Found out who your true friends were → Yes.
6. Found out someone was talking about you → Yep
7. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list → Yes!
8. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life → Most of them either now or at some point in my life.
9. How many kids do you want to have → 2
10. Do you have any pets → Yep 2 cats
11. Do you want to change your name → I did a long time ago but it kind of fits
13. What time did you wake up today → Better question when did I go to bed. Fully wake up 6am
14. What were you doing at midnight last night → Crying
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → to have all the drama stop and finally get the baby. SHE or HE is due in December!!
16. Last time you saw your father → this morning
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → my brother and his choices
18. What are you listening to right now → Beastie Boys
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → like forever ago
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → my brother
24. Most visited webpage → hotmail and blogger
1. What's your name? → Gina
3. Relationship Status → single
4. Zodiac sign → Bull or Taurus
5. Male or female or transgendered → female
6. Primary School → Mark Twain
7. Middle School → Bancroft
8. High school → Lakewood
10. Hair color → dyed
11. Long or short → long going to get cut soon
16. Height → 5'5 1/2
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → no, well maybe Nathan Fillion
18: What do you like about yourself? → personality
19. Piercings → My ears
20. Tattoos → not yet
21. Righty or lefty → Righty.
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → hip surgery when I was a kid
23. First piercing → Ears, age 7.
24. First best friends → Jamie
26. First sport you joined → Swimming and Soccer
27. First pet → Snow
28. First vacation → Lake Hemet with family
29. First concert → NKOTB when I was 12
30. First crush → Adam
RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → Nothing, so not hungry
50. Drinking → sprite
52. I'm about to → cry
53. Listening to → Bianca Ryan, she can sing!!!
55. Waiting for → Baby
YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? BADLY.
59. Want to get married? sure
60. Careers in mind? Victim Advocate for Homicide
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes → eyes
69. Hugs or kisses → Hugs that turn into kisses
70. Shorter or taller → Taller
71. Older or Younger → Older
72. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantically spontaneous.
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms
74. Sensitive or loud → how about just fun.
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → make it interesting
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → NO
79. Drank hard liquor → Yep shhhh!!!
80. Lost glasses/contacts → no
81. Sex on first date → ….NO!
82. Broken someone's heart → NO
83. Had your own heart broken → Yes, recently
85. Been arrested → No
86. Turned someone down → Yes
87. Cried when someone died → Yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → no
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → sometimes
90. Miracles → for others
91. Love at first sight → no
92. Heaven → Hell yes
93. Santa Clause → when the kid arrives then yes
95. Kiss on the first date? → depends
96. Angels → something
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → no
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → Yes in like 5th grade
99. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Sure.
100. There wasn't one - oh well! That’s lame.
June 08, 2009
Back to it
So I haven't been writing for 5 days. That's not the longest record by far, I started this blog in 2004 and didn't update or anything for years. I felt I didn't have anything to write about, my life was well school, work, sleep, school nothing interesting about that; unless your a hermit.
Weekend roundup (or just SATURDAY) I had to work a resource fair (oh boy) and then helped a challenged person take down a sign; did I mention that a gentleman put it up and had she payed attention like I did she would have been able to do it herself. Anyway, I left in enough time to get to Jenny's bridal shower, it was really great seeing her and her family. I am truly happy for her and know that she has made the right decision for her life to continue on a path that her and Ryan will be extremely happy on.
Sunday I watched House (yippee) good note I got all four seasons for the price of one. Love Target super sales.
Last night I finally cracked. People cracked me, I broke down thinking that I was going to fail. And this time I could take someone who is innocent down with me. I took out my mood on my brother who I am sure at one time would either deserve it or did deserve it. Then my mind went back to ME mode (meaning the right channel) and got it together. I know that what I am doing is the best decision for me and the child. I can do it albeit not the easiest time to do it in; but really is it ever going to be. I appreciate all the feedback and know that I consider and thought about everything that was said from everyone. I may be defensive about somethings but know that it is coming from a good place. And am still thinking everything through, my plate has grown in the last few months and come December it will never be empty which I plan on enjoying.
Weekend roundup (or just SATURDAY) I had to work a resource fair (oh boy) and then helped a challenged person take down a sign; did I mention that a gentleman put it up and had she payed attention like I did she would have been able to do it herself. Anyway, I left in enough time to get to Jenny's bridal shower, it was really great seeing her and her family. I am truly happy for her and know that she has made the right decision for her life to continue on a path that her and Ryan will be extremely happy on.
Sunday I watched House (yippee) good note I got all four seasons for the price of one. Love Target super sales.
Last night I finally cracked. People cracked me, I broke down thinking that I was going to fail. And this time I could take someone who is innocent down with me. I took out my mood on my brother who I am sure at one time would either deserve it or did deserve it. Then my mind went back to ME mode (meaning the right channel) and got it together. I know that what I am doing is the best decision for me and the child. I can do it albeit not the easiest time to do it in; but really is it ever going to be. I appreciate all the feedback and know that I consider and thought about everything that was said from everyone. I may be defensive about somethings but know that it is coming from a good place. And am still thinking everything through, my plate has grown in the last few months and come December it will never be empty which I plan on enjoying.
June 03, 2009
Doger Game + Free Food=Diet mishaps
So last night I went to a dodger game with Bianca, Sam and a friend of theirs. We sat is great seats and the section was all you could eat for $25 bucks. WOW right, a family of four could go and eat for $100 bucks and have an awesome time if of course they are winning. The section was not crowded and even had some homers come our way. The first three up to bat loaded the bases and then you guessed it GRAND SLAM, needless to say by the time we left at 9am the score was 1-5 Dodgers loosing with no sign of a come back. However, I became weirdly obsessed (not in a stalker kind of way; just a you seem like a decent guy and a good player type of way) with the left fielder Andre Either, who had a home run the 3rd inning and would toss the baseball's into our section after each warm up. Below is a pick of him from the dodger website.
With that the whole diet went out the window however I did refrain. I did better than if I would have went to a restaurant.
If you want to have a good family outing then get the all you can eat section and take the family its good way to spend a night family style.
If you want to have a good family outing then get the all you can eat section and take the family its good way to spend a night family style.
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