Every had a song that just kept repeating itself in your head. Whether it was "its a small world", "this is the song that never ends" or the one on the radio that you hate but know all the words too. That has been my life thus far. It is the song that I can't get out of my head and then all the sudden my ipod changes it to Keith Urban's "Kiss a Girl" and you laugh to yourself and move on. I believe that my life is at that stage. I am taking more time for me, enjoying my life; well trying anyway.
Why am I telling you this? Well, I think everyone with kids or without should take a day or an hour of your day to be with yourself. I was given excellent advise sometime ago and I have been trying to concentrate more on me than anyone else. Some may say selfish but I have been all about my family for so long that I forgot who I was and am. I happen to like who I am and came to realize that who I am is who I want to be flaws and all. I always put my family first because that is what I was taught but what happens when the people in your family start putting others in front of you. When is it your turn? When is it your turn to put yourself before your family and think about you? Well my time is NOW!! I still care for my family and am always there for them but I have to let my brothers live their life as men and fall, and be there when they need me in whatever capacity. My parents are raised (LOL) and it is time I let them realize that I am an adult and in order for us to live I need to be let go as well. No more using me as a vessel for information or a venting punching bag. This is my time and I am taking it. I have given up to many years of my life for family and its time I started my own. I put off things I wanted to do because I was afraid that my brothers would resent me leaving or feel like I was abandoning them. But in truth I believe that if I don't do what I want that I will end up regretting it because I failed to live my life the way I wanted to show that it is possible. Lead by example. I take more on than I should and get involved when really I should let my brothers and parents have it out, make mistakes and then be there in a shoulder rather than a fixer. I have sheltered my brothers from hurt far to long its time I let them fly and be proud that I helped them get there.
So for those who understand a little of what I am going through or all. Take the time because yours it NOW!!!
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