Where would I be without my childhood

I believe your childhood molds the very being your are. I remember most things about my childhood and feel for others that don't. One of my favorite memories is the first year we moved to the Hayter house and we joined the LGCA. I had just turned old enough to go by myself and even had my own card. I didn't know anyone but the boy 8 houses down whom I had known since his birth (I'm older). We would ride our bikes to the club house and swim all day. The lifeguard/instructor was awesome. His name was Dick and he was a firefighter that worked nights, so during the day he would be at the club house watching us kids swim and even join in on the fun. He would throw us in the pool, swing us like helicopters and teach us how to booty bump the dive board (a cool dive back in the day). We would play games and really no one would get out to "lay out" if you did the boys would get you wet some way.

That year I got my first boyfriend and had one of the best summers of my life. I was going into the 5th grade and starting a new school. I had just gotten a kitten from my Nonno and spent a lot of time with both my grand parents. I loved it.

I sometimes wonder what they would say about how there children turned out and their children's children. If they would be in aw on how diverse we all are. They were amazing people, with hearts of gold. I learned a lot from both and treasure the moments I had with them. I wish that my brothers had been able to know them like I had. I know that they would have been really fond of both my brothers.

In my child hood I had 2 amazing grandparents and I thank them for all that they did. Both my parents are great people and if not for their constant worry, nagging and laughter I would not have succeeded.

Use your blinker MAN

I shouldn't really be anywhere near a car or freeway. I have the worst road rage. Yesterday, I was getting on the ramp to the 57 S and a jacka$$ decided to slam his horn and get all mad. Um, first of all smart guy its a 2 lane ramp, second there is not need for your hostel entrance onto the ramp. Then as I was waiting for the light he proceeded to slam his horn again. I gave him a polite wave of my favorite finger and went on my marry way.

This morning I had the craziest slowest most inconsiderate drivers around me. Not to be outdone by the accident on the OTHER side of the freeway. Why or Why do Californians play the part of lookey loo when it comes to accidents. You realize that by doing that you can get into another ACCIDENT. Real smart they are.

I understand that I must share the road but really, really do you know what that thing on the side of your steering wheel is; that is correct a signaler. It is to say I am going to change lanes please allow me. Not an option.

I just need to stay off the road.

Seasons of Memories

I thought I would take a moment out of my day and talk about the upcoming seasons. I love the changing of leaves, the colors of the sky and how the air temp changes to a cool and light breeze. Can you tell I hate the heat. I remember as a kid knowing exactly when Fall was by watching out tree just outside my window. First the leaves would change from a dark green to a light creme brown and the tips would still be a light green. Soon the leaves would fall and the weather was a calming cool and I would just be happy. It wasn't that winter was right around the corner but that rain would come and I love the smell of rain. It had to be the first rain. The distinct smell reminds me of my childhood to this day. I loved living in the house where I grew up. I would and could go through the house in the complete dark and know where everything was, the sounds it would make and the way it felt in the Fall. It is the place where I felt at home, the only place I felt at home. I was there for 14 years made friends, lost friends and had my first boyfriend there. To this day I drive by the house and although the current tenants have changed the outside it still looks like my home. When we first moved to Riverside I would go back there and think I am going to buy back that house one day. But as I think on it know what I wanted where my memories and I will always have those. Riding my bike with no hands until I slipped and fell in the gutter, having my first kiss, and my first cat who turned out to be a boy that I named Princess Sophia. Hey both my Nonno and Dad told me it was a girl, but surprise he wasn't. He would walk me to school everyday and then walk me back from school. He was awesome.

Fall reminds me of home, brings back memories and happy times. This fall I am going to make different ones and enjoy the happy times. Stop dwelling on the uncontrollable world.

Weekend Round up

This labor day weekend was a bit off.

To start Saturday I worked, Sunday saw GAMER. I could have done without the nudity however, from start to finish it was really good. Not once did I feel I needed to reach out for the remote. Monday oh Monday well I got to hang with friends who one I haven't seen since her wedding and she is preggers. Yeah. Then went home around 7 the power went out. Well cooking is sort of difficult without power. Eventually we got dinner on the table and then around 830 the power came on briefly enough for a transformer to blow and start a fire. Our neighbor who is directly across (not far at all) tree was on fire. So, me in my clothes that are not outside wear and bare feet went across rocks to get their hose. My brother banged on their door and my father and I proceeded to put out the fire. It traveled to other trees and eventually we managed to get it out. The fire department came and oh the stories people where tellin. The funniest thing was that we were the first on the scene and we had people telling us what was happening. Like that guy over there put out the fire almost getting burnt, he saw it go up, blah blah blah.

Being who I am I walked over to the man with the person who just told me. And say "so you saw it go up, then why did it take you 20 minutes to come out of the house to put out the fire? Was it out already? Funny I didn't see you when I was on the other side of the bush with the house putting out the traveling ambers, nor did my father. " He stuttered trying to get the correct story out while I stood there and said "wow, its nice to know that if something happens to me I have you across the way who will wait 20 minutes till something is done and then stand around and watch. But at least you can report the story that you were the go to neighbor , thanks for that!"

He left and then the right telephone story about what happened which basically was transformer sparked made the trees catch on fire and was put out by neighbors while others called the fire department. Don't let me forget our security guys. OMG I feel so safe knowing that motorcycle guy is ready to save the day. You ask them a question and they say "UM I dunno". Heaven forbid there's a break in, there response is "um we have to wait for the police we can't help". Yep, glad I took those muay tai classes because well security is just useless. Its a shame that the park pays them. We have tried to get professionals but well the lady who is in charge she is such a peach, doesn't want to because of the liability. The liability they let a thief or worse into the place you are liable because they didn't check him in properly dumby. ugh.

So true

Some of these are actually quite funny....

Random thoughts from people 25-35 years old..

-I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

-Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you
realize you're wrong.

-I don't understand the purpose of the line, "I don't need to drink to
have fun." Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and
sticks when they've invented the lighter?

-Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're
going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to
be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the
direction from which you came, you have to first do something like
check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to
yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're
crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

-I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

-Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the "people you may know"
feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose
not to be friends with?

-Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn't
work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically
fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all
know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards
or FAQ's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft.

-There is a great need for sarcasm font.

-Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and
suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first
saw it.

-How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

-I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than
take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

- I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear
your computer history if you die.

-The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to
finish a text.

- A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the
spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.

- LOL has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say".

- I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

- Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron
test is absolutely petrifying.

- Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart",
all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".

- How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod
and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?

- MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I
know how to get out of my neighborhood.

- Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the
person died.

- I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the
shower first and THEN turn on the water.

-Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty,
and you can wear them forever.

- I would like to officially coin the phrase 'catching the swine flu'
to be used as a way to make fun of a friend for hooking up with an
overweight woman. Example: "Dave caught the swine flu last night."

-I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

- Bad decisions make good stories

-Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their
profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got
the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if
I do!

-If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring
would probably just be completely invisible.

-Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go
around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly
nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't be
a problem....

-Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't
want to have to restart my collection.

-I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me
if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I
swear I did not make any changes to.

- "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.

-I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello?
Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and
goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone
and run away?

- I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not
seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

-When I meet a new girl, I'm terrified of mentioning something she
hasn't already told me but that I have learned from some light
internet stalking.

-I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle,
then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

-Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still
not know what time it is.

-It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

-I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to
answer when they call.

-It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and
the link takes me to a video instead of text.

-I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they
drive behind obeys the speed limit.

-I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

-I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or
Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.

Reform and reprise

I have been MIA for sometime and when I am not MIA I only write a bit about nothing. Well let me tell you why. I feel that everyone around me is moving forward and I am stuck. I am not unhappy just stuck. I have friends who have gotten married, are having children and amazing careers. As I well I'm stuck. I have put out r$#^*e and nothing. All I ask for is one chance to have anyone for a step in the door.

Don't get me wrong I am happy for my friends even my few family members who have gotten what they have in life. When is it my turn. I have been patient for some time now and I really don't want to wait till I'm 80 and then someone gives me a plate with everything I have always wanted. Um, really can't enjoy it.

Some may say make your own destiny. Here's the thing. Someone else has my destiny in their hands and can't do anything about it.

So I ask my fellow stuck peeps. What is a girl to do? Besides wallow and be stuck. Again it could be worse. But it has been this way for many (emphasis on the many) years.

Is it my turn yet?