Recently I have noticed a lot of modeling shows, models and other entertainment people coming out about having eating disorders due to the scrutiny in the media today. Where is the time when Sophia Lauren who btw was not a size zero was what women wanted to be. That having curves was seen as sexy. That eating a real meal when taken on a date to a restaurant wasn't just a salad. I have never been thin to the point of bones sticking out or ribs showing. I have been healthy according to the BMI the doctors refer too. I have also for the most part been overweight my entire life. I come from an Italian family and my mother could cook; and I like to eat. I have tried to have a different view of food and get healthy for me but something always brings me back to food. It is no longer a comfort food which I believe is the step in the right direction. I believe that my "unhealthy" eating is due to the inability to get the foods I need to follow a regime.
I have been laid up for a time due to a back and hip problem. One I was born with and the other I got due to "who knows". I would like to think it is because of something I lifted, slept wrong or strain of the sitting position for 8 hours a day. But I think they factored into the problem and didn't help but ultimately it has to do with my weight.
People in the world who are overweight are tortured, made fun of and get no respect. Whether it be on an air plane (Kevin Smith), theme parks, restaurants, or walking down the street. Overweight people are seen as something other than who they are and not given a chance because of it. I realize that the situation I am in is because of me but I don't have to hear it everyday walking down the street. I am getting to the point where I confront those naysayers and have them say it to my face. Many times the run away, ignore me or apologize (doesn't happen all the time) then I tend to educate them on the do and don't of proper behavior. I explain that most overweight individuals have a problem with food that like many drug or alcoholics due only they do not "NEED' them to survive. And all of us need "FOOD" to survive. Food is like a drug for overweight people in a way that it does the same thing and the drug or alcohol would due for them.
Therefore, each day I think about other things and reward myself with an inexpensive wallet, purse, dvd, or something I wanted to do instead of a piece of candy, cake or something else.
So please remember being a size zero is not the "norm" or the average. A size 14 is the average.
February 12, 2010
February 02, 2010
Don't put it off
I have been known to put off house work, laundry and pedicures. But never the important things like my work; I am meticulous when it comes to my job. But I don't enjoy dusting, I hate it when laundry piles up and having people touch my feet grosses me out.
But I am a clean borderline OCD person when it comes to having things in its place and NOT dirty. For example when it comes do dishes or kitchen I hate it when its not wiped down or dishes are not either rinsed off or they are caked on. And putting them in the dishwasher not rinsed off just causes more problems with the dishwasher and you have to go back and rinse them off anyway. So why not do it the first time. Also the cloth you use to clean the counters or stove. Please please rinse it out do not let it start getting a funky smell and keep using it. That's not just unsanitary but NASTY.
Now everything above I know someone who does it and each time I see it I just want to break out in a lecture. The funny thing is she pretends to be this "clean" and organized person. In truth she is the worst. My 19 yr old brother is better than she is and he is a boy.
The reason for this is because I noticed something a while ago and its funny that I never thought it would have happened. But my mothers voice has entered my mind each time I see the above or she does something nasty. I could go on about all my pet peeves with this person but I am not going too. But in return the lessons and nagging that my mother did while I grew up was not merely for her pleasure although secretly I think she got a kick out it. But because she cared and wanted us to be healthy and safe.
So friends all those lessons and special duties your mother had you do over and over again. It wasn't because she didn't want to do it but because your future family needed you to know.
But I am a clean borderline OCD person when it comes to having things in its place and NOT dirty. For example when it comes do dishes or kitchen I hate it when its not wiped down or dishes are not either rinsed off or they are caked on. And putting them in the dishwasher not rinsed off just causes more problems with the dishwasher and you have to go back and rinse them off anyway. So why not do it the first time. Also the cloth you use to clean the counters or stove. Please please rinse it out do not let it start getting a funky smell and keep using it. That's not just unsanitary but NASTY.
Now everything above I know someone who does it and each time I see it I just want to break out in a lecture. The funny thing is she pretends to be this "clean" and organized person. In truth she is the worst. My 19 yr old brother is better than she is and he is a boy.
The reason for this is because I noticed something a while ago and its funny that I never thought it would have happened. But my mothers voice has entered my mind each time I see the above or she does something nasty. I could go on about all my pet peeves with this person but I am not going too. But in return the lessons and nagging that my mother did while I grew up was not merely for her pleasure although secretly I think she got a kick out it. But because she cared and wanted us to be healthy and safe.
So friends all those lessons and special duties your mother had you do over and over again. It wasn't because she didn't want to do it but because your future family needed you to know.
February 01, 2010
Health care madness
Let me start by prefacing this by saying "Yes I was a little rude and no the fact that she was a moron doesn't excuse my behavior".
On Friday I had been expecting a PHONE CALL from my physical medicine doctor. Only to come and realize that instead she emailed me giving me the run down on my MRI in medical terms no less. Um yeah I didn't get a medical degree I have no idea what and where this is so how about you call me, answer my questions and go for a different plan of care. Well after getting off the phone with the supervisor of the specialty department explaining for over an hour what I expected and needed. I felt no re leaved because I still have no idea what the heck is wrong. I have had a pain in my leg since before August. I have gone through my medical doc, othro doc and now I am at a specialty doc with language barriers. I wish that was it.
All I want is be healed have a quality of life that I deserve and get the health care I pay Kaiser for. Instead I get headaches, meds I do not want to take and the run around. I get angry and frustrated when they say " I know exactly how you feel", Um news flash you have no idea how I feel, nor does any other patient because we are all different and feel pain differently. Do not compare my pain or symptoms to someone else. It's irritating and wrong.
All I have asked for which I think is not a lot. Is a plan of care to take care of the problem, honesty and straight forward, up front realism. If you don't know what's wrong tell me, if you need more tests tell me, if you don't want to work with me tell me. All frustrations and anger can be avoided with 3 easy steps.
1. tell the patient the truth
2. treat each patient individually
3. don't assume they know what you are talking about, you went to school, paid the big bucks to understand the nonsense words.
4. BONUS-if you have a language barrier have someone in the room with you to make sure your verbiage isn't rude and taken the wrong way.
So for now I sit and wait for the phone call after making complaint after complaint. UGH.
On Friday I had been expecting a PHONE CALL from my physical medicine doctor. Only to come and realize that instead she emailed me giving me the run down on my MRI in medical terms no less. Um yeah I didn't get a medical degree I have no idea what and where this is so how about you call me, answer my questions and go for a different plan of care. Well after getting off the phone with the supervisor of the specialty department explaining for over an hour what I expected and needed. I felt no re leaved because I still have no idea what the heck is wrong. I have had a pain in my leg since before August. I have gone through my medical doc, othro doc and now I am at a specialty doc with language barriers. I wish that was it.
All I want is be healed have a quality of life that I deserve and get the health care I pay Kaiser for. Instead I get headaches, meds I do not want to take and the run around. I get angry and frustrated when they say " I know exactly how you feel", Um news flash you have no idea how I feel, nor does any other patient because we are all different and feel pain differently. Do not compare my pain or symptoms to someone else. It's irritating and wrong.
All I have asked for which I think is not a lot. Is a plan of care to take care of the problem, honesty and straight forward, up front realism. If you don't know what's wrong tell me, if you need more tests tell me, if you don't want to work with me tell me. All frustrations and anger can be avoided with 3 easy steps.
1. tell the patient the truth
2. treat each patient individually
3. don't assume they know what you are talking about, you went to school, paid the big bucks to understand the nonsense words.
4. BONUS-if you have a language barrier have someone in the room with you to make sure your verbiage isn't rude and taken the wrong way.
So for now I sit and wait for the phone call after making complaint after complaint. UGH.
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