A song says so much

I was listening to Michael Buble's new CD and he has redone Daddy's Little Girl. When I was little I used to dream of my wedding and to this day I still know exactly what I want my dress to look like, where I want to get married and although the people may have changed that are going to be in my wedding; I still know what my first dance song is going to be, and the other jams that are going to play. The only thing missing was the father daughter dance song. If you know me at all you would know that I love music. I don't have a favorite type or song (there are so many) but I love music. So finding the perfect song for the father daughter dance was important. I thought it would be Butterfly Kisses (which may be apart of it) or This wish. Then I heard it. Daddy's little girl is amazing, it may not say exactly what Butterfly kisses says but I am a true Daddy's girl, always have been. Don't get me wrong I am close to my mother but there is just something about daughters and their fathers that is different. I try so hard to make my father proud, make sure he knows that I respect him and love him dearly.

So know all I need is to meet the man, marry him and I can have that dance. BTW the first dance with my who knows husband is Everything.

Fallen and getting up

I need a hobby or something like a hobby. I have many things that I do and like to do in my spare time. However, I am getting bored of the books that are out, tired of doing the same ol thing and I don't have the space to do what I really want to do nor the equipment at the moment. The one thing I am very excited about is my xmas "craft" or what I like to call what everyone is getting this xmas. I do the xmas thing with friends and some famiy members. Others must understand that I am making my gifts and that means that I actually took the time to think what they like, enjoy and can have fun with. Therefore my "idea" is genius. I am actually doing it with my mom who came up with part of the idea and I added my little spin to it. I can't wait to get started, now that things are getting closer and time is closing in on me.

I will post pictures of the crafts as they get done.

Its Raining In Cali

What's different today you ask well I have decided to start a new blog (still keeping this one) but it is going to be about struggles and triumphs that I have had and am still going through in life. It will not be linked to me at first I want to be able to use the 5th amendment freely. I do not want any association to myself these are personal experiences and things I have strong opinions about that I want to share in hopes that they might help someone out there. Don't miss understand all these things I would talk about freely with anyone who asked I am just tired of not getting my feelings out on certain things because others have opinions themselves and therefore discount others.

HEY ya'll I died my hair trying to get rid of the GREY let me tell you that is a fight in itself. I do it myself as I work for a non-profit and am trying to save to move out. I have finally paid off my credit card I used to pay for school.

I have evaluated my life the past month or so and this past week I saw what I do and do not want in my life.

~ I still want to be a mother. One who communicates with their child and they feel they can speak on any subject freely. No judgment. Which is going to be difficult being as I am a strong minded woman with a opinionated mind. (which I am working on_).
~ I commend and applaud my parents for raising my siblings and I. We become useful members of society with morals and values that are not frequently found in others.
~ Kudos to current mothers doing there thing and teaching your children. Molding them to be strong good people.

I believe I am here for a reason and am going to enjoy the journey in figuring out what that is. Am I in a healthier place emotionally sure physically NO. Again working on it.