Set me up already!!

This is me..red face and all.

I make no excuses nor do I apologize.
When its hot, I turn red and look like this.
Its called Rosecea and its not contagious.
I have had this all my life and I have come to
just deal with it.
I really don't care because it could be worse.

Yesterday, some co workers brought up
dating and i somehow got in the mix.
One said I was too picky
another said that it was hard
and another said do I know anyone.

The truth is I have been closed off for
years.
Guys will yes like me but
I wouldn't know how to respond or
I didn't want too.
I am horrible at flirting and really
don' t know if a guy is hitting on me
unless I am told directly.
I diagnosed my self
Relationship deficient.
There may be a cure I just haven't
found one yet.

I am not against being set up
as long as the parties involved know
you can walk away at anytime.

I just have a few things you have to have
before the date:

1. A job
2. No criminal record
3. speak English-FLUENTLY!!
4. NO CHEATERS
5. a sense of humor
6. Males need only apply.
   

Is that too much to ask for apparently.

Alas I am waiting patiently for the guy who
fits all my criteria and who doesn't want to change
me but understands and likes my quarks.

If you have someone in your life who fits
enjoy, live and love a lot. Its not easy finding
them so congrats.

Homework

I have told that going back to my hobby would be good for me. So that's exactly what I am going to do. I am going to start taking random pictures.....YEP that's right you may fall victim to being caught my eye and I will make you pay. Oh you bet I will. That picture is all mine and I will share it. But don't fret I will be nice..well maybe.

YAHAHAH

Wee bit of Wednesday v 30

{one} how tall are you?I be 5'5"

{two} besides bills, what do you spend most of your money on?Movies, movies and more movies and music!!

{three} what are your three favorite websites?all job listings sites....

{four} what brand of tennis shoes do you prefer?new balance....they are awesome for my back and knee!!

{five} what food can you absolutely not stand to eat?tuna with mayo YUCK

{six} How many pairs of jeans do you own?Not a lot I'm currently between sizes and trying to loose OH SO MUCH MORE!!

{seven} if you could have any job, what would it be?FBI agent in BAU

{eight} have you ever ridden in an ambulance?No not yet

{nine} how many pillows do you sleep with?so many....my cats need the softness too!

{ten} on a scale of 1-5, how organized are you?5

By any other name it would smell as sweet!!

LDL check in:

For the past month or so I have been following a plan to help me eat better. It has been working "I think". My clothes fit me differently, I look different and others have noticed. However, there are still those few items that you know you should be fitting better in and you (ME DROPPED 2 WHOLE SIZES) notice that well not so much.

Does that mean that you revert back to what you are used too doing. EATING LOTS OF FOOD.

NO!! Absolutely NOT.

I do have to say that I have been cautious of what I eat, when I eat it, and with what. My biggest or heaviest meal is at lunch and I avoid all processed foods as much as possible.

It is difficult because I do not live alone and there are others who are not doing the same thing as me nor do they try to support it. Therefore, I spend WAY TOO MUCH MONEY on food because I have to buy double when others eat it who are not on the "eating plan" but who just want to because (*ugh).

Fret not my friends I am still sticking to the plan and will not waiver even at work. Cake and ice cream were served yesterday and I had nothing. Bagels, cream cheese and cupcakes were available too and I had one bit of a cup cake and that's it. AHH self control.

This is not a diet but a life plan and I am sticking to it. Although PMS wants me to eat chocolate very bad. UGH THE PAIN

Until next time my friends enjoy, live and laugh a lot. Toodles

Tuesday's Hoo Are you?

1. Do you wear glasses or contacts, if so for how long?

Nope 20-20

2. What was your favorite board game as a kid?

Monopoly then a very MEAN and RUDE Aunt ruined it for me.

3. What is a word that you use all the time?

DUDE

4. What is your favorite day of the week?

Saturday morning

5. Did you graduate high school from the town you grow up in?

Yep, Lakewood!!

Fill in the blank Friday

1. My favorite quote is: Don't really have one.

3. The first time I felt like a “grown up” was: When I moved out on my own.

5. When I was a child I wished my name was: Stephanie, Nicole I had so many

6. I wish: I had my dream job.

7. A secret I have is: I regret not having kids earlier.

What are some of your answers? Link it back to The Little Things We Do. I would love to read your answers.

I lovin these at the moment

A few things I am lovin today!!

This little guy was on my desk this morning.
Oh how I love PENGUINS!!

I love the Pats.
I will miss you Football Season.
Until September...adieu

Togo's has a great half a sandwich and
SALAD deal.


Ahh BOBBLE the Water Bottle.
I shall call you thirsty.

This is me pre-LDL
or when I started doing it.
I like the way I feel and the
fact that I am feeling better.

H2O is better

*Bobble water bottle available
at Target.com

I am the worst person at drinking the
"amount" of water you are to get per day.
I don't like the taste of water.
I don't like the lack of bubbles.
I don't like that it doesn't curve my cravings.
I just don't like the aftertaste period.

I am a Mountain Dew person.
A Soda type of gal.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE me some POP.

So yesterday after reading some testimonies
regarding this water bottle and after
standing in Target holding the water
bottle wondering if I should make the purchase.
I decided to purchase one today after work.
It will most likely be in black or blue and
used frequently.

I do have other bottles of water
that I have either purchased or received as a gift
that I love. However, I can't seem to bring myself to
drink the water let alone stand the aftertaste it brings.

So my trickery starts here my friends.
I am going to get this Bobble bottle and
use it all the time. Then after a while
my body will be so used to drinking water
that I can use my pretty bottles.

Cool trick eh?

LDL update*
Had a little tussle with some chocolate however
got back to eating correctly the next meal.

I am not on a DIET I am changing my life!!

HOO ARE YOU

1. Do you use an alarm clock or some device to wake you up, or do you wake up on your own?
I use my old cell phone. I have three different options to wake up.

2. If you could go on any game show, which won would you choose?
The Biggest Looser
Wait does that count as a game show?

3. Do you prefer the weather to be hot or cold?
COLD

4.What color of clothing do you wear the most?
Earth tones

5. What is your favorite color?

BLUE

Wee Bit O Wednesday V 29

{one} name one thing you worry about running out of.Money
{two} what is your favorite pizza topping?veggie no cheese

{three} what is your favorite harrison ford movie?Star Wars

{four} apple juice or orange juice?orange juice.
{five} what’s your favorite thing to do on a Sunday afternoon?well, during football season, i like to kick back with a cold beer and watch football.

{six} what is the wallpaper on your cellphone of?sky with trees blowing

{seven} do you have a favorite tv commercial?I love Mayhem. But also the new Snickers Peanut Butter with
Great White Sharks.

{eight} what is the weirdest thing you’ve ever eaten?This fruit thing in London. GROSS

{nine} what is one piece of clothing you can’t live without?Patriots sweatshirt

{ten} if you were a character from “lost”, who would you be?I am one of the few who never saw Lost.

PROGRESS

I am not one to post pics of myself.
OR
At all really.
I have never liked pictures of me
except when I was an 18 year old
fresh in High School
*AHHH memories

However since changing my
LIFE PLAN
~My clothes are getting way to BIG,
~I have to put another notch on my belt
for it no longer fits,
~I have way more energy,
~I have taken the time to put on
make-up.
*all right mascara more than before though
~Wearing clothes that I haven't been able
to for sometime.

I am NOT.....I repeat NOT on a DIET!!
I have changed the way I see and eat
food.

I am working on seeing food as a way
to give me strength and energy
ONLY!
Not a way to block people out from hurting me
or
a coping.

Although I still have a lot
of road ahead of me.
I am not HAPPIER
just
BETTER.

So here's to those who have taken
the same
Roller Coasters,
Speed Bumps,
Dips,
Fences,
Obstacles Courses,
Crammed Seats
and
Crude Comments.

There is a way to eat to live and not live to eat.
If I can work it so can you.
Make it the way you,
you can handle it.
Just do it!

I have lost more than
just some poundage!

Men reverting back to Cave man era

First let me start off by saying
"I am a HUGE PATRIOTS FAN"
better or worse I am a fan.
With that being said I was horrified by what
happened Sunday.
The PATS did not show up to play.
The JETS who are not a better team
W.O.N.
Are you freaking kidding me?
You let OMG I hurt my TOE *eye roll
beat you?

The display of sportsmanship was
nonexistent. The Jets were horrible
winners. The Patriots win or lose
show
CLASS.

The display by the Jets head coach
was down right
RIDICULOUS.
Rex Ryan you are a poor excuse for a
"role model".
Shame on you!!

Therefore, for the first time in
ever, I will be rooting on
Aaron Smith and the (blah) Steelers!
I hope the Steelers show the
Jets what true sportsmanship is
all about. And kick their behinds in the process.

Don't get me wrong. The Patriots were the team to beat.
Everyone said that they were going to the Superbowl.
They were it.
But someone didn't tell them that day.
Brady had an off day, the receivers weren't connecting,
tight ends missed a few queues.
It was not there best performance.
However, Bellichek and the Pats are still
a better team.
Their season was 14-4 the best out of all
the teams.

Let's hear it for the PACKERS/BEARS to win Superbowl!!

Compliments and such

I am the first to admit I have a difficult time taking compliments. Criticism I am good and taking in and making the changes if needed. However, when someone pays me a compliment I immediately go into protective mode. With help and acknowledgment this time I said thank you and didn't even bat an eye. Talk about moving forward.

For the past few weeks I have been working towards changing the way I eat. Since I have eaten a certain way my entire life I can't change over night. Therefore, I have consciously made an effort to recognize what I eat and why I eat it. For example someone paying me a compliment or a guy giving me some sort of acknowledgment of interest I immediately crave certain "fatty" foods. As a way to cover up. But with help and writing about my actions and feelings I am able to stay clear of those "impulses".

I think that staying on the path and changing things a bit at a time I can finally hear someone say good things to me and not reach for a fry.

Here's to healthy living...

Oh no you don't Negative Nancy.....

This made me happy today!!

Just call me negative G D.O.G.

Let's recap shall we...
Yesterday around 9:38am (exact time btw)
I feel this horrible pain
My intestines decide to once again
F.I.G.H.T.
only thing is the person they are hurting....
M.E.
Trying not to remove my organs
or rid myself of the breakfast I
ate that morning.
I hurry home to avoid getting
ill at work.
But much to my dismay
I end up getting sick in my new car.
That's right
IN.MY.NEW.CAR.

*TMI alert*
I grab my Patriots sweatshirt
and without looking get over to the side.
I end up having to stop 3 more times before
I get home. I have a fever and
continue to show what I do not have inside.
I sleep a bit and feel better.
Although the site of food makes me
NAUSEOUS.

To top it off my clothes are disgusting, our washer
is broken and my car
SMELLS.

That is why TOGO'S made me happy.
All is good right now.
And I may have lost some poundage....

YAH

Wee Bit Wednesday

{one} have you ever been on tv?

Yes thank you. I am in a movie and video. The movie is the one that Nsync and Britney did a long time ago. For 18 hours sitting in the gym watching Take 5 dance. I fell asleep...oops. The video is the Nelson twins and I was in high school. We just rocked the entire day...SO.MUCH.FUN

{two} what was the best movie you saw last year?I saw a lot of movies last year. I really liked A-Team

{three} do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?Tucked in at the bottom only.

{four} do you cut coupons?No I should start.

{five} do you ever count your steps when you walk?I have yes

{six} what sauce do you dip your chicken nuggets in?EWWW I hate chicken nuggets. Chickens do not have nuggets~!!

{seven} do you have any magazine subscriptions?I did to people
{eight} when was the last time you wrote a letter on paper?Um, do thank you cards count??

{nine} what’s your favorite fruit pie?Strawberry
{ten} black olives or green olives?BOTH! i love olives!!

work space

Ta DAh!

This is my view of my desk in my office. Isn't it cozy? I tend to change what my desk looks like around because I get bored easily and looking at the same thing all day long can get redundant. Which causes my OCD to kick in and then BAM it changes...

Notice my pretty file folders. I wish I had more stuff in them but my job doesn't require me to do a lot of filing plus most of it is on my computer. I used to have this great desk calendar that was of Sodoku.. (oh how I heart Sodoku) but 2010 is OVA and I have no calendar at this moment. I do in fact have 4 waiting to be put up at home.

OH wait I do have one. A pretty DOTTY one that is currently behind my phone note taker thingy.

So ya'll make sure you enjoy your workspace and can really work in, have things available to you. I buy most of my post its, pens, well supplies really. Because they are what I like to use and working for a non-profit doesn't really allow moola to buy the pretty things.

Plus Target's dollar section is AWESOME!!

Toodles

Snookified

(yes this is me after my step sister did my makeup and hair)
In my defense I didn't even know who Snooki was
let alone WHAT.HER.HAIR.LOOKED.LIKE
I took this crazy picture and when I do my
make up it is less BAAM and more ahhh!!

I felt like I was Olivia on Jerseylisious
just did my makeup
Happy Friday!!

Ch...Ch....Ch

Changes

That's right going through some changes.
Good or bad I am going to the best I can
to keep positive and stay SANE.

What type of Changes?
Are they major ones, like pregnancy or
MARRIAGE?
Am I moving some place exotic?

HAHAha

So, in this new 2011 I have decided
some things that need to be changed.
They are to go along with my 3 items that
I plan on to do this new year.

No I am not getting married or
PREGNANT.
I am NOT moving any place exotic.

The changes in my life are the following:
(is anyone besides me having trouble following me)

1. Adoption is near
2. Moving out
3. *New job (hopefully)
4. going to use this blog as a release
5. Therapy :)
6. Just not going to care any longer
7. Focus on being a better person
8. Volunteering
9. Keeping on track with healthy eating and lifestyle
10. Enjoy life and travel

That's my plan what's yours?

2010 Recap

What I Read in 2010
April- Silver Borne
February-Shift
January-Frostbitten
January-The Battle of the Labyrinth
January-The Last Olympian
January-The Lightning Thief
January-The Sea Monsters

January-The Titan's Curse
July-The Red Pyramid
October-The Last Hero
September-Alpha

What I saw in 2010?
A-Team
Alice in Wonderland
Avatar
B-Girl
Bandslam
Beatdown
Charlie St. Cloud
Cirque de Freak
Clash of the Titans
Daybreakers
Dear John
Dream a Little Dream 2
Due Date
Easy A
Eclipse
Eye of the Dolphn
Fame
Fast Lane
Harry Pottery Deathly Hallows Part 1
How to Train Your Dragon
Ice Castles-Revamped
Inception
Invictus
Iron Man 2
JackA$$ 3-d
Jonah Hex
Just Right
Kick Ass
Killers
Knight and Day
Last Song
Law Abiding Citizen
Legion
Losers
Newcastle
Nightmare on Elm Street
Nine
Ninja
Ninja Assassin
Percy Jackson: The Lightning Thief
Post Grad
Precious
Prince & Me 4
Repo Man
Resident Evil 4
Runaways
Scott Pilgrim Saves the World
Sex in the City 2
Snowboard Academy
Sorority Row
Step Up 3
The Back-Up Plan
The Expendables
The Last Air-bender
The Lovely Bones
The Stepfather
Time Travelers Wife
Toy Story 3
Up
Up in the Air
Valentines Day
When in Rome
Whiteout
Wild Child