Not a size a zero

Recently I have noticed a lot of modeling shows, models and other entertainment people coming out about having eating disorders due to the scrutiny in the media today. Where is the time when Sophia Lauren who btw was not a size zero was what women wanted to be. That having curves was seen as sexy. That eating a real meal when taken on a date to a restaurant wasn't just a salad. I have never been thin to the point of bones sticking out or ribs showing. I have been healthy according to the BMI the doctors refer too. I have also for the most part been overweight my entire life. I come from an Italian family and my mother could cook; and I like to eat. I have tried to have a different view of food and get healthy for me but something always brings me back to food. It is no longer a comfort food which I believe is the step in the right direction. I believe that my "unhealthy" eating is due to the inability to get the foods I need to follow a regime.

I have been laid up for a time due to a back and hip problem. One I was born with and the other I got due to "who knows". I would like to think it is because of something I lifted, slept wrong or strain of the sitting position for 8 hours a day. But I think they factored into the problem and didn't help but ultimately it has to do with my weight.

People in the world who are overweight are tortured, made fun of and get no respect. Whether it be on an air plane (Kevin Smith), theme parks, restaurants, or walking down the street. Overweight people are seen as something other than who they are and not given a chance because of it. I realize that the situation I am in is because of me but I don't have to hear it everyday walking down the street. I am getting to the point where I confront those naysayers and have them say it to my face. Many times the run away, ignore me or apologize (doesn't happen all the time) then I tend to educate them on the do and don't of proper behavior. I explain that most overweight individuals have a problem with food that like many drug or alcoholics due only they do not "NEED' them to survive. And all of us need "FOOD" to survive. Food is like a drug for overweight people in a way that it does the same thing and the drug or alcohol would due for them.

Therefore, each day I think about other things and reward myself with an inexpensive wallet, purse, dvd, or something I wanted to do instead of a piece of candy, cake or something else.

So please remember being a size zero is not the "norm" or the average. A size 14 is the average.