Security Blanket

I'm not talking about the item you sleep with, I am talking about the security you feel in your job, family, home, your life in general. I can't remember a time that I felt any type of security in any of those things. I always waited for the floor to drop from underneath and I fall flat.

I have been fired before from a job (I quit before he could). I was upset and angry however I understood why sort of. The manager well really the co-manager didn't really get along with me. He and the manager were friends and would take "smoking breaks" every 10 minutes and I always had to work the front. It sucked I had to commute from Riverside and work with him. He always said "cool beans" which was annoying. The only good part of the job was that I worked with one of the nicest guys named Keith. He was awesome so awesome that we were messing around and I accidentally put a staple in his leg and he was cool about it. I felt horrible and apolgogized to him every time I saw him. Needless to say I was fired from there and the other manager was happy (jerk) but I was sad for like a day and then moved on. Went out looking for another job and instead went to see Jay Leno (ok so it was really for NSYNC) but still and met some amazing people and got a job through them.

Still no job security. After that I went to a let's call it Info center that was like working at a cattle ranch only I was one of the cattle. I was bored all the time and read books to keep my mind going. Really I would answer the phone and be reading something, type into the computer and connect them. It was like I was waiting to be slaughtered. After a few years I joined a 'special section' that dealt with stars information. Pretty much I just read all day in that section. While I was working 5:30-1:30, I then drove from Riverside to Long Beach for school.

I found a job at the Aquarium and "moving place" when I moved to Long Beach. I was promoted rather quickly and was not liked in the new department. Didn't really care though. I did my own thing and graduated college and moved forward.

But each job I never had job security. I had more than what I listed of course but really I never felt that even if I messed up I wouldn't be fired. Still feel that way. My wish is that I find "my career" and am happy doing what I love. Isn't that everyone's wish, and make money of course.